new york state of mind.
flash forward about 2 weekish, i'm doing alot better. i guess.
me and ray are working things out. we both realize being apart is real stupid if all we want to do is be with each other. his hugs > any drug. he came up last weekend and it was weird, lots of emotion - nyc was kinda boring cause everyone went home. now this weekend was better.
becky invited me to philau's homecoming dance cause she had an extra ticket and i seriously needed a night out. so i go down to philau and becky dresses me up and me, her, sarah, jill, calla, maria and this other girl who told me her name but the music was loud all went in the ram van [LOLZ philau rams it alot] and go to the dance. get pictures like its prom with all like 34890432 of us aka like 7? dance for a couple hours then we hit up this after party. how about a hike and a half. an hour and a half of walkng cause ray was drunk when he gave directions like a smart one. we finally get there and it was CROWDEDDDD. took me 20 minutes to get a cup but finally ray got me one, good boy. talked to lots of people, met some people. yelled really loud and made out like an asshole cause i wasnt supposed to make out with him.
funniest situation ever.
lets shake it up: so i told becky that i couldnt make out with ray last night cause i was trying to be good and like not let us making out affect his decision to be with me and all
lets shake it up: so i was with this kid joe (rays friend petes brother) and becky and i was telling becky this most of the night
lets shake it up: so back in this girl calla's room who i was hanging out with
lets shake it up: i was telling her roommate alex about how i hooked up with ray and how i shouldnt have and all this and said "well weve been dating a year blahblahblah cheated and all this so this isnt a good idea"
lets shake it up: and joe goes "oh i thought when you said you couldn't make out with him it was because hes like.. your brother"
told ray this morning and we both died laughing. it never fails. i like going to parties, especially with philau kids. they adopted me, i love it there. which brings me to another dilemma ive been avoiding.
i might leave pace. being in nyc is both emotionally and financially straining. i came home and felt so much better about everything and had one of the best times ive had in a while this past weekend. THIS IS NOT TO SAY THAT I HATE PACE. i fucking adore pace, its everything i could want. the people ive met have been wonderful, theyve been there for me alot through the last couple of weeks ive been real emotional. i just don't know if i can deal with life being so far away from home, especially the financial part. i'm giving it this year then looking into maybe transferring to philau. they have a pretty decent marketing program and i love the people ive met. definately a naz/ghost feel, i like it. and im home in half hour. i have alot to think about. its only october and i need to give pace a chance, im just keeping the option in the back of my mind.
right now, i'm talking to danielle. shes coming to see me this weekend. and im pretty stoked. we just had the funniest phone conversation ever. some people are ridiculous, others are just plain morons.
all i know is whats true right now:
im going to try my hardest to make this work, with everything.
back to nyc tomorrow, i miss my roommates and neighbahs.
me and ray are working things out. we both realize being apart is real stupid if all we want to do is be with each other. his hugs > any drug. he came up last weekend and it was weird, lots of emotion - nyc was kinda boring cause everyone went home. now this weekend was better.
becky invited me to philau's homecoming dance cause she had an extra ticket and i seriously needed a night out. so i go down to philau and becky dresses me up and me, her, sarah, jill, calla, maria and this other girl who told me her name but the music was loud all went in the ram van [LOLZ philau rams it alot] and go to the dance. get pictures like its prom with all like 34890432 of us aka like 7? dance for a couple hours then we hit up this after party. how about a hike and a half. an hour and a half of walkng cause ray was drunk when he gave directions like a smart one. we finally get there and it was CROWDEDDDD. took me 20 minutes to get a cup but finally ray got me one, good boy. talked to lots of people, met some people. yelled really loud and made out like an asshole cause i wasnt supposed to make out with him.
funniest situation ever.
lets shake it up: so i told becky that i couldnt make out with ray last night cause i was trying to be good and like not let us making out affect his decision to be with me and all
lets shake it up: so i was with this kid joe (rays friend petes brother) and becky and i was telling becky this most of the night
lets shake it up: so back in this girl calla's room who i was hanging out with
lets shake it up: i was telling her roommate alex about how i hooked up with ray and how i shouldnt have and all this and said "well weve been dating a year blahblahblah cheated and all this so this isnt a good idea"
lets shake it up: and joe goes "oh i thought when you said you couldn't make out with him it was because hes like.. your brother"
told ray this morning and we both died laughing. it never fails. i like going to parties, especially with philau kids. they adopted me, i love it there. which brings me to another dilemma ive been avoiding.
i might leave pace. being in nyc is both emotionally and financially straining. i came home and felt so much better about everything and had one of the best times ive had in a while this past weekend. THIS IS NOT TO SAY THAT I HATE PACE. i fucking adore pace, its everything i could want. the people ive met have been wonderful, theyve been there for me alot through the last couple of weeks ive been real emotional. i just don't know if i can deal with life being so far away from home, especially the financial part. i'm giving it this year then looking into maybe transferring to philau. they have a pretty decent marketing program and i love the people ive met. definately a naz/ghost feel, i like it. and im home in half hour. i have alot to think about. its only october and i need to give pace a chance, im just keeping the option in the back of my mind.
right now, i'm talking to danielle. shes coming to see me this weekend. and im pretty stoked. we just had the funniest phone conversation ever. some people are ridiculous, others are just plain morons.
all i know is whats true right now:
im going to try my hardest to make this work, with everything.
back to nyc tomorrow, i miss my roommates and neighbahs.