I wanted to meet those expectations and exceed them, while remaining authentic to what I wanted to see for the characters.
EXACTLY! That is exactly what I am going through.
Well, okay, to be fair, the last time I updated was the very end of October and then November was a work-a-thon, and December...I was burned out from working so damn much, and then the holidays and yeah...
But then, when I finally came back to it, I just...I had this VISION of how I wanted it to be and it's not like the other scenes, and so, I was, like, biting my nails over the different cadence of it. I mean, so far everything has been so on-the-edge of the seat flurry of passion and UST, and I was (and am) really worried that this new thing was going to let people down. But, there is no way I could not be true the story, ever, so I trudged through it.
And NOW...now I am worried about getting the edge back in later scenarios. Which I need to not worry about, as it's in the future, and just let the story evolve naturally. And then, their relationship has taken a major leap and I'm not sure of the language around it yet. I think that is actually what is irking me the most. Language that fits the change, but doesn't turn the story all mush (which the plot won't allow anyway.) But yeah, I want that tension back. lol. It's only been one chapter (this next one) without the massive tension - jeez, like, could I just let them be happy for a little tiny bit! - and I'm already jonesing for more.
*pulls out hair*
I am so sorry for the rant style exasperation. I am just so SO SO SO glad to know that I am not the only one. And to hear your experience with it!
EXACTLY! That is exactly what I am going through.
Well, okay, to be fair, the last time I updated was the very end of October and then November was a work-a-thon, and December...I was burned out from working so damn much, and then the holidays and yeah...
But then, when I finally came back to it, I just...I had this VISION of how I wanted it to be and it's not like the other scenes, and so, I was, like, biting my nails over the different cadence of it. I mean, so far everything has been so on-the-edge of the seat flurry of passion and UST, and I was (and am) really worried that this new thing was going to let people down. But, there is no way I could not be true the story, ever, so I trudged through it.
And NOW...now I am worried about getting the edge back in later scenarios. Which I need to not worry about, as it's in the future, and just let the story evolve naturally. And then, their relationship has taken a major leap and I'm not sure of the language around it yet. I think that is actually what is irking me the most. Language that fits the change, but doesn't turn the story all mush (which the plot won't allow anyway.) But yeah, I want that tension back. lol. It's only been one chapter (this next one) without the massive tension - jeez, like, could I just let them be happy for a little tiny bit! - and I'm already jonesing for more.
*pulls out hair*
I am so sorry for the rant style exasperation. I am just so SO SO SO glad to know that I am not the only one. And to hear your experience with it!
*hugs you tight*
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you have delve deeper into your characters and how they interact with each other to keep that edge going
I've been thinking about that a lot lately, and definitely see that as the right direction. Thank you so much (again)!
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