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Is it possible to feel your heart shattering into a milion pieces at the exact moment that it's finally putting itself back together? I'm fighting with him constantly and with my own head and heart because it's so easy to love him and it feels so wrong to be at odds with him. I feel wrong, but he broke my heart worse than anyone else, and I can't let that happen again. I doubt I could take it. It's so easy to love him, he makes it so damn easy and I hate it. I hate that letting him in brings be to a state of peacefullness that I haven't known in so long.
I think it's impossible to both protect myself and my heart and feel ok again. In so many ways in my life I'm just stuck. I can't move forward and I can't turn back. And I want to move so badly but I can't. And it's more than just this, it's everything. I literally cannot go anywhere and it kills me. I have no idea what to do.
I think it's impossible to both protect myself and my heart and feel ok again. In so many ways in my life I'm just stuck. I can't move forward and I can't turn back. And I want to move so badly but I can't. And it's more than just this, it's everything. I literally cannot go anywhere and it kills me. I have no idea what to do.