Nov 24, 2008 17:49
So Jake moved to South Carolina, my parents moved to Fargo, Erik works in Fargo. Goers is moving to Georgia. Julie moved to Arizona. My Big is in California. And I quit school and my sorority and am moving home. I cannot express the full extent of how much I regret my choices. I cannot tell you how much I wish I could stay here with my sisters and have all those great expirences and memories doubled and tripled. And how much I'm going to hate leaving my Little. And I truely don't want to. I want to stay here for her, to help her and to get her and excited about AXO as I am. And I would stay if I didn't need so much help. If I didn't need to be around Lindsay Ann and her guidance. If I didn't miss Thom so damn much. I'd stay for the next 2 years if I could. But this last year was pretty darn horrible and it made me realize somethings and it's making me actively seek help for all my problems. I'm just going to miss my sisters so much. They mean the world to me, and I know that I'm going to hate myself for leaving and for giving them up, but I don't see any other way. I really don't.