This is silly.
I am fucking stupid. Do you know why? I will tell you why. I am engaged. I have been trying and trying and TRYING to deny these feelings to myself, telling myself it's dumb, I'm dumb, and it's not right. And then I talked to James, and I figured out what the hell I want. And it's not him, or anything to do with him. But like we were talking about today, when you know, you know. That's that. When you spend time with someone and you can see yourself growing old with them and having their kids and all of that stuff...plus the crazy feelings, you just know man. Does anyone know what I'm saying? I'm happy. That's all I know. I'm happy. I wont be getting married for like three years, but I'm engaged. Weird, isn't it? I have a ring right now...but it's not the one that I'm going to keep and be wearing all the time, we're going to go buy that at some other moment in time. but I do have a ring with little diamonds on it right now. heh. This is crazy, but it just FEELS right, does anyone know what I mean? Bleh. heh. I will update with more details at a later point in time. Bye Bye everyone.