summer break down
i'm in the middle of, really, my only week of summer break where i don't have to work or go to school and i'm having a breakdown. it's because of this damned resume tape. my tape...is horrible. so i've been frantically trying to make it better. every day i've woken up early, slapped on a ton of makeup, put on something stuffy and professional looking and gone to the station all day. i'm exhausted. i've gotten nothing. my standups are shit. the package that i made last night is horrible. it's about school finance and it's...just not stellar. but it's better than this one i have about easter sunday church seatings. i did a mock with rodney last night. he's so good. bob says he's ready to go on air and that he'll fight for him. rodney just turned 20. i am no where near ready. i mean, i can report, i can put together packages, but i look horrible on camera. i have chins.
i hate my body.
it looks fine in real life, but the camera, oh the camera. i tried to start starving myself last week, because i don't have the energy/time to work out anymore, and it didn't work. i'll start working out again when i get back to dallas.
anyway, even if i did look ok, i can never get any of my work done because i have to tag along with people and cant take out my own camera. i just want to shoot my own stuff, or at least have my own photog that i can use for a day. my hair is falling out.
i hate my body.
it looks fine in real life, but the camera, oh the camera. i tried to start starving myself last week, because i don't have the energy/time to work out anymore, and it didn't work. i'll start working out again when i get back to dallas.
anyway, even if i did look ok, i can never get any of my work done because i have to tag along with people and cant take out my own camera. i just want to shoot my own stuff, or at least have my own photog that i can use for a day. my hair is falling out.