hmmm - life is interesting
I don't really know where to turn,
I'm stuck in the stars,
I don't know how to learn,
To be someone I'm not.
Far far away from here,
Is a place upon a hill,
Will I find the cure?
Will I be beaten back?
From suffering comes wisdom,
For this I'm sure,
But will I succumb?
Will I keep my focus?
Draw near to God,
And he will draw near to you,
Such a simple verse,
But simplicity does not compare.
A state of vexation,
More than concentration,
What is love God?
It's your son.
The embodiment, the embrace,
Why do we use the word love
In such petty ways?
Does it not mean more?
Will I say it,
When I don't mean it?
Or will I say it
At all?
Why can't I concentrate?
Why can't I focus?
Do I love her?
Do I love You?
Love is perfect,
Love is profound,
Love is elation,
When love is found.
What happens to my feelings for you?
Eternal elation is seek-able,
Obtainable, Ascertainable,
Beyond comprehensible.
I just don't know,
Where I go from here.
But since you let me love you Lord,
I will love you without fear.
I pray for focus,
I pray for focus,
I pray for focus,
I pray for focus.
I thought I'd share my "midnight prayer" for a change on here.....if anyone even reads this anymore - lol. I just needed to write some stuff down for a change. These are my fairly usual thoughts. Life at LSU continues to be awesome - classes are going great, I continue to be involved with the BCM and we're going to MEXICO in a few weeks!!!! It's going to be soooooo exciting - I love mission trips.....sometimes......ok ok....A Lot of times I visualize myself as a missionary because it's the only thing I've ever been truly happy doing. I love people and I love helping people - I don't understand what God's doing in my life right now, but he's doing something. I'm waiting for a phone call for a church internship in New York this summer - it's going to come this week or it's not going to come at all. Either way - everything works out the way it's supposed to in the end. I know that as long as I'm not in control, all (and I mean ALL) will go as God has planned it. That's why I'm afraid sometimes when I try to take control of a situation, just like I'm doing now - but I don't want to make a mistake.....the best things that God blesses us with are most definitely worth waiting for. So I will wait because there's freedom in waiting, but captivity in controlling.
Upcoming Events:
Andrew's arrival in NC/SC: Thursday, March 3.....2:30ish.............CHRISTMAS IN MARCH - HECK YES!
4PM-10PM --- rocking out w/the Fort Mill Community Praise Team!
Friday/Saturday: Hanging out w/my family and maybe....hopefully some friends
(Avianna, Kylara, and all my other Chester peeps!)
Sunday, March 6......ROCKIN' FOR JESUS! at FMCC....10AM - i'm too ecstatic!
Andrew's departure to LA: Sunday afternoon....."Callin' Baton Rouge"
MARCH 13: SOJOURN PRE-VIEW WORSHIP....8PM @ the BCM ---- this is the new church plant that I'm involved with and I can see God using us to make a mammoth, largess, even gargantuan, if you will, impact at LSU - this church is truly focused on serving the LSU community...Clear Goals=Clear Vision=Reaching the lost! I'm at a loss for words to describe how much I'm excited about this.
Ok - I think it's too late to be writing anymore....I'm probably going to look back at this journal entry tomorrow and be like "Andrew! What was wrong with you?!?!" But anyway....
I'm stuck in the stars,
I don't know how to learn,
To be someone I'm not.
Far far away from here,
Is a place upon a hill,
Will I find the cure?
Will I be beaten back?
From suffering comes wisdom,
For this I'm sure,
But will I succumb?
Will I keep my focus?
Draw near to God,
And he will draw near to you,
Such a simple verse,
But simplicity does not compare.
A state of vexation,
More than concentration,
What is love God?
It's your son.
The embodiment, the embrace,
Why do we use the word love
In such petty ways?
Does it not mean more?
Will I say it,
When I don't mean it?
Or will I say it
At all?
Why can't I concentrate?
Why can't I focus?
Do I love her?
Do I love You?
Love is perfect,
Love is profound,
Love is elation,
When love is found.
What happens to my feelings for you?
Eternal elation is seek-able,
Obtainable, Ascertainable,
Beyond comprehensible.
I just don't know,
Where I go from here.
But since you let me love you Lord,
I will love you without fear.
I pray for focus,
I pray for focus,
I pray for focus,
I pray for focus.
I thought I'd share my "midnight prayer" for a change on here.....if anyone even reads this anymore - lol. I just needed to write some stuff down for a change. These are my fairly usual thoughts. Life at LSU continues to be awesome - classes are going great, I continue to be involved with the BCM and we're going to MEXICO in a few weeks!!!! It's going to be soooooo exciting - I love mission trips.....sometimes......ok ok....A Lot of times I visualize myself as a missionary because it's the only thing I've ever been truly happy doing. I love people and I love helping people - I don't understand what God's doing in my life right now, but he's doing something. I'm waiting for a phone call for a church internship in New York this summer - it's going to come this week or it's not going to come at all. Either way - everything works out the way it's supposed to in the end. I know that as long as I'm not in control, all (and I mean ALL) will go as God has planned it. That's why I'm afraid sometimes when I try to take control of a situation, just like I'm doing now - but I don't want to make a mistake.....the best things that God blesses us with are most definitely worth waiting for. So I will wait because there's freedom in waiting, but captivity in controlling.
Upcoming Events:
Andrew's arrival in NC/SC: Thursday, March 3.....2:30ish.............CHRISTMAS IN MARCH - HECK YES!
4PM-10PM --- rocking out w/the Fort Mill Community Praise Team!
Friday/Saturday: Hanging out w/my family and maybe....hopefully some friends
(Avianna, Kylara, and all my other Chester peeps!)
Sunday, March 6......ROCKIN' FOR JESUS! at FMCC....10AM - i'm too ecstatic!
Andrew's departure to LA: Sunday afternoon....."Callin' Baton Rouge"
MARCH 13: SOJOURN PRE-VIEW WORSHIP....8PM @ the BCM ---- this is the new church plant that I'm involved with and I can see God using us to make a mammoth, largess, even gargantuan, if you will, impact at LSU - this church is truly focused on serving the LSU community...Clear Goals=Clear Vision=Reaching the lost! I'm at a loss for words to describe how much I'm excited about this.
Ok - I think it's too late to be writing anymore....I'm probably going to look back at this journal entry tomorrow and be like "Andrew! What was wrong with you?!?!" But anyway....