internal clock
DISCLAIMER: this is one of those "more than you want to know entries"
sometimes it kind of bugs me how my self image runs on a monthly time schedule. Without fail, I can always count on the fact that the week after my period ends I am going to feel great about my body. I have this mindset of "oh man, I have the tighest, hottest, skinniest little body around. I should totally be a model. I bet everyone's jealous of how good I look" and I go shopping and try on clothes and feel AWESOME. This is such a fabulous feeling, and it lasts for around two weeks. But as we know...there's only 4 weeks in a month. And that third week, I start to feel less awesome and more flabby. When I look in the mirror I see chubby thighs and love handles, and I feel grossed out. It's such a wierd thing that girls go through. Obviously nothings actually changed, but you sure couldn't tell me that at that time. So for the rest of these last two weeks I feel progressivly fatter and fatter, which is a NOT good feeling. And then we start the cycle over with awesomeness again. It always runs this way...without fail. Sadly I've entered back into the crappy phase of the cycle, and I know for a while I'm going to feel fat and when I look in the mirror I'm going to look into the mirror and see a girl who is getting chunky. And I know saying that everyone would go "omg reba you are so not fat don't even say that" but what I'm saying is that is what I see. I think that's what every girl sees. Maybe not on a strict lunar schedule like me. But that's one of the things that us girls find so bonding is that we can all relate to eachother in that way.....GIRL POWER (ala spice girls)
sometimes it kind of bugs me how my self image runs on a monthly time schedule. Without fail, I can always count on the fact that the week after my period ends I am going to feel great about my body. I have this mindset of "oh man, I have the tighest, hottest, skinniest little body around. I should totally be a model. I bet everyone's jealous of how good I look" and I go shopping and try on clothes and feel AWESOME. This is such a fabulous feeling, and it lasts for around two weeks. But as we know...there's only 4 weeks in a month. And that third week, I start to feel less awesome and more flabby. When I look in the mirror I see chubby thighs and love handles, and I feel grossed out. It's such a wierd thing that girls go through. Obviously nothings actually changed, but you sure couldn't tell me that at that time. So for the rest of these last two weeks I feel progressivly fatter and fatter, which is a NOT good feeling. And then we start the cycle over with awesomeness again. It always runs this way...without fail. Sadly I've entered back into the crappy phase of the cycle, and I know for a while I'm going to feel fat and when I look in the mirror I'm going to look into the mirror and see a girl who is getting chunky. And I know saying that everyone would go "omg reba you are so not fat don't even say that" but what I'm saying is that is what I see. I think that's what every girl sees. Maybe not on a strict lunar schedule like me. But that's one of the things that us girls find so bonding is that we can all relate to eachother in that way.....GIRL POWER (ala spice girls)