It's goodbye time.
So it's been a long long time. But it's about that time.
There's been a lot on my mind. I don't know where to start exactly but I guess I have to start somewhere.
I'm very bi-polar with my job. It's not hard by any means but I get bored with it easily. I am sure no job is perfect but the benifits are pretty decent. They rent me a car sometimes, pay for gas, my pay should be higher but oh well. Oh and I can come in at 11 and it's ok. Plus I get to work next to the most adorable Irish boy i've ever met. That will get me up in the morning. Besides work i've been trying to keep busy but it's hard. I've always been the kind of person who loves to be alone. I love to watch some tv and just chill or sleep late without having to have plans. I love chaos but at my discretion is what I am trying to say I guess.
I'm pretty happy lately though because Alex is in town and he alwys makes me smile.
I've also rekindled some friendships that I let slip away. I did that with keeping the ones that matter most still in that spot. I tend to let people slip and I think I am doing an ok job with that.
The only thing that I have been a little depresed about is being alone. I know that my family and friends are always there for me but I want something more. Im not going to go out and pick a random by any means which is why I have been single for so long. I guess i'm just getting tired of waiting and i'm not willing to settle into something that I know is going to end up bad. Look what happened last time I took a chance...the asian tattoos should have been a sign. I walked right into that disaster. But the upside is that I blame no one but myself and i've learned from that mistake along with others. I'm not bitter, hiding myslef or being evasive with guys I am being myself but unwilling to settle without the chemistry.
I guess that's about it. Holla.
There's been a lot on my mind. I don't know where to start exactly but I guess I have to start somewhere.
I'm very bi-polar with my job. It's not hard by any means but I get bored with it easily. I am sure no job is perfect but the benifits are pretty decent. They rent me a car sometimes, pay for gas, my pay should be higher but oh well. Oh and I can come in at 11 and it's ok. Plus I get to work next to the most adorable Irish boy i've ever met. That will get me up in the morning. Besides work i've been trying to keep busy but it's hard. I've always been the kind of person who loves to be alone. I love to watch some tv and just chill or sleep late without having to have plans. I love chaos but at my discretion is what I am trying to say I guess.
I'm pretty happy lately though because Alex is in town and he alwys makes me smile.
I've also rekindled some friendships that I let slip away. I did that with keeping the ones that matter most still in that spot. I tend to let people slip and I think I am doing an ok job with that.
The only thing that I have been a little depresed about is being alone. I know that my family and friends are always there for me but I want something more. Im not going to go out and pick a random by any means which is why I have been single for so long. I guess i'm just getting tired of waiting and i'm not willing to settle into something that I know is going to end up bad. Look what happened last time I took a chance...the asian tattoos should have been a sign. I walked right into that disaster. But the upside is that I blame no one but myself and i've learned from that mistake along with others. I'm not bitter, hiding myslef or being evasive with guys I am being myself but unwilling to settle without the chemistry.
I guess that's about it. Holla.