I want to...
So i'm clean. In more ways than one.
This past week has been a little crazy, and actually in a way made me realize how far along I really am in my life. To some I may only be 22 but I am 22. At this point in her life my mom was pregnant with a second child. By no means am I saying that is where I want to be. Although, what can I say I accomplished thus far? I am not even in a relationship than has the possibility of ending because I am so fearful of the end. With that aspect I suppose it's where I can't settle. I always settled. I settled with family and friends thinking I didn't deserve more. Then I met my best friend and really realized what friendships are about. They are not perfect, we are not perfect but in the end you would do anything for them. You're honest and caring and make sure they are safe whether its psyical or emotional.Through everything over the past couple of years you come to know someone so well, and it's not until they are in need do you really realize it. All it takes is a little analyzing to understand the pattern in which you as a person do things. I've tried analyzing my life but...we all know how that turns out.
Im in Troy for the week. It's not the most exciting but it this time around hasn't been that bad. I've had a lot of time to think and refect and to just hang out which is always nice. I am jealous of those leaving to go to Florida in a couple of days though. I would like a vacation...but I don't deserve one. I was just spoiled having a couple each year for over six years. I was used to the finer things when it came to life and now i'm crossing that bridge into the thing we call reality where you don't have vacations every summer. It's ok...but it can drive a person crazy.
This past week has been a little crazy, and actually in a way made me realize how far along I really am in my life. To some I may only be 22 but I am 22. At this point in her life my mom was pregnant with a second child. By no means am I saying that is where I want to be. Although, what can I say I accomplished thus far? I am not even in a relationship than has the possibility of ending because I am so fearful of the end. With that aspect I suppose it's where I can't settle. I always settled. I settled with family and friends thinking I didn't deserve more. Then I met my best friend and really realized what friendships are about. They are not perfect, we are not perfect but in the end you would do anything for them. You're honest and caring and make sure they are safe whether its psyical or emotional.Through everything over the past couple of years you come to know someone so well, and it's not until they are in need do you really realize it. All it takes is a little analyzing to understand the pattern in which you as a person do things. I've tried analyzing my life but...we all know how that turns out.
Im in Troy for the week. It's not the most exciting but it this time around hasn't been that bad. I've had a lot of time to think and refect and to just hang out which is always nice. I am jealous of those leaving to go to Florida in a couple of days though. I would like a vacation...but I don't deserve one. I was just spoiled having a couple each year for over six years. I was used to the finer things when it came to life and now i'm crossing that bridge into the thing we call reality where you don't have vacations every summer. It's ok...but it can drive a person crazy.