folks would kill to fill your shoes
right now i've put myself in the center of something dumb again. i just don't really understand how i keep attracting these situations. rob and i had a talk... kind of. it was over aim. he was scared i was going to be mad at him, and i thought that he must be about to tell me he's now going with someone else, right?
nope apparently he just wanted to make it clear that he still doesn't know what he wants. i knew from the day i met him that he liked this other girl. a girl i knew and liked... she's a pretty cool lady. anyway, his serious talk was i guess because he was feeling guilty, or thinking he was leading me on. i guess with the upcoming visit at the end of august he was getting nervous i was expecting something. i wasn't and told him so. i said i knew, but i appreciated the honesty, and that when he figured it out to let me know. until then, we're friends. i told him not to worry about me reaction. i wasn't going to scream or cry, or challenge this other girl to a duel or anything silly like that.
so basically he doesn't know if he wants to be with her, or me. personally i think i'm better.... i'm kind of the cat's meow you know? i'm just glad it wasn't worse news. now we're talking and things seem fine.
tonight i'm seeing the new harry potter with olivia. i'm very excited. i'm genuinely happy that i'm reconnecting with liv and ness. i mean honestly friends to me are sometimes seasonal. i drift from people, even when i care about them. just because shit take people in different directions, or my outer persona just seems to attract people, but sometimes they're not the best sorts of people. i've learned not to take it too personally. so it's nice to reconnect to people who i know have my back, and care about me.
least that's just how i feel. now i should be getting ready for the movie..... jesus it's been far too hot to deal with all this drama XP
love,
Brit
nope apparently he just wanted to make it clear that he still doesn't know what he wants. i knew from the day i met him that he liked this other girl. a girl i knew and liked... she's a pretty cool lady. anyway, his serious talk was i guess because he was feeling guilty, or thinking he was leading me on. i guess with the upcoming visit at the end of august he was getting nervous i was expecting something. i wasn't and told him so. i said i knew, but i appreciated the honesty, and that when he figured it out to let me know. until then, we're friends. i told him not to worry about me reaction. i wasn't going to scream or cry, or challenge this other girl to a duel or anything silly like that.
so basically he doesn't know if he wants to be with her, or me. personally i think i'm better.... i'm kind of the cat's meow you know? i'm just glad it wasn't worse news. now we're talking and things seem fine.
tonight i'm seeing the new harry potter with olivia. i'm very excited. i'm genuinely happy that i'm reconnecting with liv and ness. i mean honestly friends to me are sometimes seasonal. i drift from people, even when i care about them. just because shit take people in different directions, or my outer persona just seems to attract people, but sometimes they're not the best sorts of people. i've learned not to take it too personally. so it's nice to reconnect to people who i know have my back, and care about me.
least that's just how i feel. now i should be getting ready for the movie..... jesus it's been far too hot to deal with all this drama XP
love,
Brit