i n d e p e n d e n t.
"...do you know what that mean?" TOTALLY KIDDING. I hate that song!
Anyways, its September 24th, 2009, about 7:10 at night. Today started off so horrible that I didnt want to be around or even be here. But that all changed when I got everything off my chest and vented to some people about it. I dont think I've cried myself to sleep like that in a while. It sucked. Last night I was wayy more upset about the christina thing cause all of this is bullshit. It makes me so angry. But what made me mainly upset about this morning was that Lauren couldn't even give a shit about me. Maybe she did but if she did she had a funny ass way of showing it. I knew she was very aggervated too because she didnt have a cigarette but she could have at least asked me what was wrong and everything.Thats what best friends do for ech other right? And she shouldnt have let me sit there all bummed out and depressed. Shes not as good as I am with that stuff. Shes there physically but shes really not there emotionally or mentally. I just wish she showed her emotions more often than she does now. I can only have hope. But in all in all, shes so much better than when me and her first started being different with one another. She doesn't lie anymore to me really (only fibs- which everyone does) , shes more open with me; communication (which I love) , shes getting more comfortable with me now(wierd for her cause Im a girl) , And shes making progress with "US"( :D ).
uPdates;;
- love the apt
- need to fnd a new job
- things are finally happening;]
photoshoot;
[I love this picture bc its 2 classy girls together]
[Eminem will always be sexy]
[I love how they show pride in so many ways :)]
Anyways, its September 24th, 2009, about 7:10 at night. Today started off so horrible that I didnt want to be around or even be here. But that all changed when I got everything off my chest and vented to some people about it. I dont think I've cried myself to sleep like that in a while. It sucked. Last night I was wayy more upset about the christina thing cause all of this is bullshit. It makes me so angry. But what made me mainly upset about this morning was that Lauren couldn't even give a shit about me. Maybe she did but if she did she had a funny ass way of showing it. I knew she was very aggervated too because she didnt have a cigarette but she could have at least asked me what was wrong and everything.Thats what best friends do for ech other right? And she shouldnt have let me sit there all bummed out and depressed. Shes not as good as I am with that stuff. Shes there physically but shes really not there emotionally or mentally. I just wish she showed her emotions more often than she does now. I can only have hope. But in all in all, shes so much better than when me and her first started being different with one another. She doesn't lie anymore to me really (only fibs- which everyone does) , shes more open with me; communication (which I love) , shes getting more comfortable with me now(wierd for her cause Im a girl) , And shes making progress with "US"( :D ).
uPdates;;
- love the apt
- need to fnd a new job
- things are finally happening;]
photoshoot;
[I love this picture bc its 2 classy girls together]
[Eminem will always be sexy]
[I love how they show pride in so many ways :)]