what today??????
Lets see. today started with me waking up from a horrible nightmare. I was in a car with people from world changers and we were listening to jesus songs. The jesus songs were made of changing the words from blink 182 songs but keeping the music it freaked me out. I was wondering why they all sounded familiar. I went back to sleep and woke up at 7:26 because i don't set my alarm clock at 7:25 because i wanted that one minute more of sleep because i hadnt had but about 5 or 4:30 because of my restlessness so I was pretty tired. You know how when your that tired u just stand in the shower for about 10 minutes wondering why you have warm water going down your back and why your not washing yet because your too lazy that was this morning. I got to church at about 8:10 ready to go to sliding rock and creek walking. When i got there, only 5 people were going (me, Ian, Jordan, Jordan's friend, and tamika. so I thought that I would have enough room to spread out and sleep on the way up. no....CJ and Brandon came which is cool but damnit I wanted to sleep. I attempted but it didnt really work; i have mild flu symptoms when I am half asleep and I am chilled very easily so this kind of sucks so far, but after about 3 hours we got to pisgah national forest or something and we went creek walking. The water was frickin cold dude but somehow my penis didn't shrink I just lost the feeling in it for the rest of the day. We walked and kept walking in the creek and fell a couple of times and eventually climbed up onto the road and walked back to the church van. I had to take off my shoes and sucks because they were so wet. My toenails still had the pink toenail polish from Katy painting them and no one noticed until tamika said something and then they all looked and then i had to explain I didnt really care I thought it was funny so I kept my shoes off for basically the rest of the day. we went to sliding rock and I didnt know what being cold meant until then. We were in line for sliding rock and eventually we made it to the top first went Ian, then CJ, Brandon, and I quickly followed thought i was gonna land on Brandon in the icy water below. My instincts took over when i first hit the water I could breath but I had almost not control of my body except swimming out of there. Then we did it again. I was still shivering half of the way up to the top of the slide again. I went down for my last time and got out freezing cold. I went to a rock where the sun was at so that I could dry off. so cold........... people looked at me as I walked by this one middle aged woman gave me this evil stare and I seriously do not know why it freaked me out. so after she stared at me I decided to go up to the bridge that people were watching people go down at. I stood inbetween these two old guys and eventually they walked away from where I was standing and went to the other side to see the people go down. then this old grandma gave me an evil stare.... damnit whats with the frickin old people probly about 50+ looking at me like i confuse them way too much stupid toenail polish. Actually I laughed. eventually they decided to stop freezing themselves and to go eat damn I was hungry. after I changed another lady looked down at my feet and just kept staring at them and smiled and then right when I just passed her I started laughing because she looked like she was wondering if I was gay or not. I should have said something to her like do you like my toenails but I was too tired to think of that and was to glad that I was actually now in warm clothes. We ate and then went home. forgot to mention. Jordan tries to talk like she is black when she is around tamika because tamika is half. I know she's just doing it to sound cool or to sound funny because she normally talks like she is white because she is white. do i need to underline that? no..... Jordan is cool I just wished she realized that the different voices aren't really working for her but if i said nething to her she would find it offensive and get pod like the time I flicked her ear after she popped a bubble of bubble gum right in my ear owwww!!!!.... This makes me think of the time I went with New Hope Baptist to Caswell and Mike said something about this one girl that was white - chocolate. That made me laugh and want to go steek at the same time that was a nice trip...... anyway back to today. after we ate we went back home and i fell asleep halfway home and woke up to water being poured on my head because the girls thought that it would be funny and it was but i was to tired to laugh or think it was funny so i just stared at them for a couple minutes and went back to sleep and woke up to them doing it again which got really gay the second time because i was expecting it. After we got back, I gave Ian a ride home. We were both extremely tired too tired to really care about nething so I didnt invite myself inside like I normally would. I went home and my mom told me that my dog has cancer. When I am tired i seriously don't care sometimes because I just wanted to go to sleep. We have to put shelby to sleep I prayed and asked God to heal her if its in his will because it would make my mom very happy. but unless he does shelby is going to be put to sleep in a few days. we are going to give her a happy pill before then so we can say goodbye to her and she will go in dignity and will die happy thinking that it is nothing more than just another time going to sleep after the needle goes out of her body and she begins to become tired and eventually dies and we bury her. sorry about ending my journal in a sad note but thats what happened before I woke up at 9 p.m. I don't know if its bad or what of me because I seriously do not care that she is gonna die. I don't want to cry or nething. I just wonder what my mom is gonna do when she doesn't have company in the house when no one else is home. I hope everything turns out ok and I want to same something happy before I go but don't want to break these thoughts of my dog because of reverence. I guess better to die now instead of having to wait for cancer to kill her. just remember what tupac said in his song "God bless the dead". and I'm out without ne further thing to say.