I havn't written in awhile.
Someone who meant a lot to me died last week while I was on vacation. I was in shock for a few days and then got really stressed out. After all the shit going on with moving and selling and the guys car i hit, I broke down. I was about to go into my AA meeting and I just broke the fuck down. Thank god for Desiray, she took me out of there and to Perkins so we could talk, then we got a hotel for the next day so we could go to John's funeral in Austin, MN. It was one of the saddest things ever. I still can't believe that never again will I be in a meeting and John will walk in 5 minutes late, say something random and obscene, and then something that would really mean something and make us think. Never again will I see the big blue eyes and fantastic smile of the only good lawyer I've ever met.
John,
Everytime I hear thunder in the sky, I'll know it's you on a ride.
Everytime I see a rainbow, I'll think of all you have taught me.
And everytime I see an English Setter, I'll think of Maverick and how much you loved him.
You taught us all so much, and we were blessed to know you.
I thought it was ok when I told Dez that I was ok with Kell being her sponser, but I dont know how this will work out. I feel like I need to compete with her, and I feel like she's walking in on my territory. I've just gotten so close to Kelly, and I can't get used to the idea of her sponsering another teenage girl. But, I'll have to get over it and stop being so selfish. Also, I've been with Dez everyday since I got back from NY, and I think maybe I just need a break from her. We are housesitting all of next week, and It will pretty much be me there, alone, in the middle of nowhere, with no car or license. It will be good me time.
John,
Everytime I hear thunder in the sky, I'll know it's you on a ride.
Everytime I see a rainbow, I'll think of all you have taught me.
And everytime I see an English Setter, I'll think of Maverick and how much you loved him.
You taught us all so much, and we were blessed to know you.
I thought it was ok when I told Dez that I was ok with Kell being her sponser, but I dont know how this will work out. I feel like I need to compete with her, and I feel like she's walking in on my territory. I've just gotten so close to Kelly, and I can't get used to the idea of her sponsering another teenage girl. But, I'll have to get over it and stop being so selfish. Also, I've been with Dez everyday since I got back from NY, and I think maybe I just need a break from her. We are housesitting all of next week, and It will pretty much be me there, alone, in the middle of nowhere, with no car or license. It will be good me time.