Been a long, long while.. hasn't it?
I'll stick to my title, it has been. And i won't go denying it...
Now there are many things that keep me from posting here.. most of it is i never have much to talk about anymore.. i've got a pretty standard boring life right now. I MUD everyday, i play SC2, i drink tea, i eat lunch, i MUD some more, i talk to people on the net, i have fights with my mom, and i can't hold a job...
Yet, i vowed to myself, it's pretty much the last straw here. I AM going to go get a job next month, other mudders have jobs! so can i! i can and will find one, and will be happy with it.
In other news, my art insperation is finally returning.. for a long time i found it really hard to draw, which was pissing me off.. and then one night i took a three hour break from the computer, threw on my favorite lacuna coil cd (Unleashed memories) and just.. drew.. and lo and behold, i came out with something and ran out of room beaming, told my parents scanned it to all my friends... it'd been a long time since i felt that good.. and i can still look at that picture and say, "Yeah, it is one of my bests."
On news of my knee, i finally had a chance to get an MRI.. which proved to me that yeah, i did fuck my knee up pretty spendid.. though i wonder if i make it out to be worse than it is.. all i have now is real minor discomfort.. i cant go sitting for three hours then stand without some sort of "ow, that really hurts" or toss and turn in bed without waking up and rolling over alot. But what they said i did was move my kneecap to the side a bit (the left) and damage a whole lot of tissue around it that's not properly healing. they wont say if i need surgery or not, but i'm just glad not to be walking with a cain again.. cripes i can even climb Theo's stairs quite well, i remember lumbering up those narrow things awhile ago.. ^.^;
huh.. other things...
Mom want's me back in school, and i get cut from our insurance next wednesday, because i'm not a college student. i've been banned from using mom's car now, cause i can't pay gas money to her... oh and we had a huge argument last night, that i will not go into. but at least she seemed not to remember it this morning when i woke up, or she's hiding it again. One of my friends online, who's kinda now like my other mom, listened to my brunt rant of it, and i was thankful for that.. i hadn't even said more than "I need to collect myself a moment." and she knew something was wrong... it's amazing how women -do- that.
^^;
I'm feeling a bit more balanced today, but i still don't feel that balance with my religion as much as i used to.. it's been nearly 2 months since i've been to my mentor's house, and i'm afraid to call.. i mean i know they will remember who i am but i think i dunno.. i wonder if all that i spent forging is gone, really, and i'm scared to know, i MEAN to call them every monday, i just tend to forget.. like usual. i swear, i have no short-term memory.
/me groans
but besides all those personal probloms, i'm surviving, one lazy-boring day at a time.
This friday i'm having my early birthday party. I decided to hold it earlier because i never manage to ever HAVE it on the REAL day, and i wanted a friend to come who had that day off, and not next weekend. So Araydon, Tia (who i both met through the mud, and who happen to go to Oly High) are comming, which i'm excited for, and i've only met them once, really.. we went out to pizza two weeks ago, fun fun. And Scott, Theo and Erin are comming... if i had my way and a bigger apartment i'd invite a lot more people.. i'll try to get Cassi to come if she's home and has the night night off... (yay for turning 19 and having stuff leave with it!)
it's funny.. how everyone else has a life but me... heh..
okay and to end this long blurb that i know most won't bother finishing, i have a quiz i took from elga's journal. thought it was cute. (of course these are my results, amazing how they are simalar to hers though!)
You scored as Druid Fairy. Your heart belongs to nature. Your green satin hides you in the brush. You influence plants to grow, and you have a special connection to animals.
Druid Fairy
77%
Ethereal Priestess Fairy
60%
Autumn Fairy
56%
Raven Fairy
56%
Goddess of the Golden Dawn
54%
Pixie
52%
Rose Thorn Fairy
48%
Twilight Mistress Fairy
44%
Snow Fairy
27%
Which Firefly-Path Fairy are you?
created with QuizFarm.com
Safe Paths..
-Ilharae
P.S. I want to learn Russian... /me sighs ALSO: I updated my journal look, i got tired of the depressing red and shuffled in some nature like greens.. and my avatar now is a small shot of that pic i was talking about ^^;
Now there are many things that keep me from posting here.. most of it is i never have much to talk about anymore.. i've got a pretty standard boring life right now. I MUD everyday, i play SC2, i drink tea, i eat lunch, i MUD some more, i talk to people on the net, i have fights with my mom, and i can't hold a job...
Yet, i vowed to myself, it's pretty much the last straw here. I AM going to go get a job next month, other mudders have jobs! so can i! i can and will find one, and will be happy with it.
In other news, my art insperation is finally returning.. for a long time i found it really hard to draw, which was pissing me off.. and then one night i took a three hour break from the computer, threw on my favorite lacuna coil cd (Unleashed memories) and just.. drew.. and lo and behold, i came out with something and ran out of room beaming, told my parents scanned it to all my friends... it'd been a long time since i felt that good.. and i can still look at that picture and say, "Yeah, it is one of my bests."
On news of my knee, i finally had a chance to get an MRI.. which proved to me that yeah, i did fuck my knee up pretty spendid.. though i wonder if i make it out to be worse than it is.. all i have now is real minor discomfort.. i cant go sitting for three hours then stand without some sort of "ow, that really hurts" or toss and turn in bed without waking up and rolling over alot. But what they said i did was move my kneecap to the side a bit (the left) and damage a whole lot of tissue around it that's not properly healing. they wont say if i need surgery or not, but i'm just glad not to be walking with a cain again.. cripes i can even climb Theo's stairs quite well, i remember lumbering up those narrow things awhile ago.. ^.^;
huh.. other things...
Mom want's me back in school, and i get cut from our insurance next wednesday, because i'm not a college student. i've been banned from using mom's car now, cause i can't pay gas money to her... oh and we had a huge argument last night, that i will not go into. but at least she seemed not to remember it this morning when i woke up, or she's hiding it again. One of my friends online, who's kinda now like my other mom, listened to my brunt rant of it, and i was thankful for that.. i hadn't even said more than "I need to collect myself a moment." and she knew something was wrong... it's amazing how women -do- that.
^^;
I'm feeling a bit more balanced today, but i still don't feel that balance with my religion as much as i used to.. it's been nearly 2 months since i've been to my mentor's house, and i'm afraid to call.. i mean i know they will remember who i am but i think i dunno.. i wonder if all that i spent forging is gone, really, and i'm scared to know, i MEAN to call them every monday, i just tend to forget.. like usual. i swear, i have no short-term memory.
/me groans
but besides all those personal probloms, i'm surviving, one lazy-boring day at a time.
This friday i'm having my early birthday party. I decided to hold it earlier because i never manage to ever HAVE it on the REAL day, and i wanted a friend to come who had that day off, and not next weekend. So Araydon, Tia (who i both met through the mud, and who happen to go to Oly High) are comming, which i'm excited for, and i've only met them once, really.. we went out to pizza two weeks ago, fun fun. And Scott, Theo and Erin are comming... if i had my way and a bigger apartment i'd invite a lot more people.. i'll try to get Cassi to come if she's home and has the night night off... (yay for turning 19 and having stuff leave with it!)
it's funny.. how everyone else has a life but me... heh..
okay and to end this long blurb that i know most won't bother finishing, i have a quiz i took from elga's journal. thought it was cute. (of course these are my results, amazing how they are simalar to hers though!)
You scored as Druid Fairy. Your heart belongs to nature. Your green satin hides you in the brush. You influence plants to grow, and you have a special connection to animals.
Druid Fairy
77%
Ethereal Priestess Fairy
60%
Autumn Fairy
56%
Raven Fairy
56%
Goddess of the Golden Dawn
54%
Pixie
52%
Rose Thorn Fairy
48%
Twilight Mistress Fairy
44%
Snow Fairy
27%
Which Firefly-Path Fairy are you?
created with QuizFarm.com
Safe Paths..
-Ilharae
P.S. I want to learn Russian... /me sighs ALSO: I updated my journal look, i got tired of the depressing red and shuffled in some nature like greens.. and my avatar now is a small shot of that pic i was talking about ^^;