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i dont deserve him at all. I'm not good enoughto be in his life. I mean i'm emotional and can't explain why i am sometimes. :( i'm a horrible girlfriend. I want to be with him all the time but i can't because i work and he works and i play soccer and he goes to his sisters thingys. we fight a lot now and i hate it. we did better when we were away 300 miles. Kinda odd right? i think so. I hate fighting with him. He's my world and i put my whole heart into this relationship but i dont know anymore. all we do is fight about the dumbest things and its my fault. I'm not a good girlfriend and he can say yes u r but i know i'm not. I dont deserve him someone who is pretty and nice does. Someone perfect like missy. i'm very happy but its dwindling the more we fight. I hate us fighting. i hate me crying and feeling weird. I feel so weird like around his family and its not right. I feel like i dont belong there anymore like they look at me weird now and i hate that feeling. i'm tired and achy lol. I missed the soccer game today and let down my girls :( i didn't get fed because my family doens't care. My aunt jodi and my mom aren't talking woot.*rolls eyes* i feel like crap i want to be held and loved and feel like i belong. I feel that now just not as much as i did :( I hope one day it will go back to me being the happiest girl ever and not the weirdest feeling girl ever