Rubbery brain, lying on the floor *cue country music*
On a completely random note: anna nicole smith is dead. I don't particularly care, but for some reason it struck me as one of the more random pieces of news that scuttled across my screen.
I love those little news things. They make me laugh, even though I probably shouldnt. 1. Anna nicole found dead 2. Whale activists lost at sea
Aside from that, I'm beginning to have dark creeping doubts about myself and careers etc. I always thought it was only study that was hard, but I actually now think that maybe, just maybe, I don't "have what it takes". And I mean, in general. I'm not referring to any particular industry or trade. I hate the whole gifted child thing that people spat at me in school, I just feel like I've wasted all the potential I ever had before I even realised that I had it. And I feel completely helpless.
But how bad do I need to feel before it gives me enough nerve to actually fucking do something about it? I want to Be and be a Doer. And do.. I don't know what but something. I want to be able to associate words like impressive, amazing, spectacular with my life. Well, maybe not the last one, I don't like that much as a word, no matter how much personality it has.
It's just frustrating. Like maybe a brain with no context to learn and no body to act. Helpless, and kind of funny looking, and sad. Except there is so much to take in. Perhaps I'm too rubbery, it just bounces off.
I also will join in this game. Why not.
http://www.lost.eu/1b147
I love those little news things. They make me laugh, even though I probably shouldnt. 1. Anna nicole found dead 2. Whale activists lost at sea
Aside from that, I'm beginning to have dark creeping doubts about myself and careers etc. I always thought it was only study that was hard, but I actually now think that maybe, just maybe, I don't "have what it takes". And I mean, in general. I'm not referring to any particular industry or trade. I hate the whole gifted child thing that people spat at me in school, I just feel like I've wasted all the potential I ever had before I even realised that I had it. And I feel completely helpless.
But how bad do I need to feel before it gives me enough nerve to actually fucking do something about it? I want to Be and be a Doer. And do.. I don't know what but something. I want to be able to associate words like impressive, amazing, spectacular with my life. Well, maybe not the last one, I don't like that much as a word, no matter how much personality it has.
It's just frustrating. Like maybe a brain with no context to learn and no body to act. Helpless, and kind of funny looking, and sad. Except there is so much to take in. Perhaps I'm too rubbery, it just bounces off.
I also will join in this game. Why not.
http://www.lost.eu/1b147