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Everybody else is doing it, and now I'm totally interested.
http://kevan.org/johari?name=il_reve <--click on it, pick some words, make me happy :D
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In the past, I have split thinking about this and was completely unsure and 50-50 on what I want to do with my life career-wise. Although I am still quite unsure, it's not so 50-50 anymore. I really don't think I want to be a doctor anymore, of any kind, at all. And any thinking into such, I think, relies only in the fact that I'm afraid of change...I've wanted to be a doctor pretty much my whole life and being anything but completely turns my world around. Other than that, that is no longer my desire. It doesn't fit into the lifestyle I want and have worked so hard and been shaped into. I don't want my life to center around my career...and being a doctor, especially a heart surgeon, would require nothing less. I want my life to center around my family...I am sure about that. Aside from that, I am still unsure about what I want to pursue. I would like it if I could someone incorporate writing though, and somehow highlight my intense desire to help the otherwise helpless. I am shaky about what exactly my future holds for me, but it feels good to eliminate something and at least be going somewhere. It may be taking awhile, but it feels like it's actually coming together.
As for family, my views on what kind I want are continuing to strengthen. This might sound silly thinking about all of this right now when I clearly have no reason to, but I continue to see first hand what kind of husband I want and what kind of family I want to marry into. I'm content in learning more about myself and what kind of person-mom, wife, friend-I want to be. I don't have any doubts about being a good mom anymore-my life thus far has been about proving people wrong and doing the opposite of what I've been shown, and this is just another way to continue with that theme. So, I feel good. I may still be shaky and unsure, but I feel good that my life is heading in some direction. It's kinda cool to be able to look at anyone and find at least one quality that I want to emulate. I look at myself a year or two ago and I smile at how much I've grown and how far I've come. Im...excited.
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Is it possible to have feelings for someone you've never seen...that you really don't know anything about aside from whos in their life...?
http://kevan.org/johari?name=il_reve <--click on it, pick some words, make me happy :D
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In the past, I have split thinking about this and was completely unsure and 50-50 on what I want to do with my life career-wise. Although I am still quite unsure, it's not so 50-50 anymore. I really don't think I want to be a doctor anymore, of any kind, at all. And any thinking into such, I think, relies only in the fact that I'm afraid of change...I've wanted to be a doctor pretty much my whole life and being anything but completely turns my world around. Other than that, that is no longer my desire. It doesn't fit into the lifestyle I want and have worked so hard and been shaped into. I don't want my life to center around my career...and being a doctor, especially a heart surgeon, would require nothing less. I want my life to center around my family...I am sure about that. Aside from that, I am still unsure about what I want to pursue. I would like it if I could someone incorporate writing though, and somehow highlight my intense desire to help the otherwise helpless. I am shaky about what exactly my future holds for me, but it feels good to eliminate something and at least be going somewhere. It may be taking awhile, but it feels like it's actually coming together.
As for family, my views on what kind I want are continuing to strengthen. This might sound silly thinking about all of this right now when I clearly have no reason to, but I continue to see first hand what kind of husband I want and what kind of family I want to marry into. I'm content in learning more about myself and what kind of person-mom, wife, friend-I want to be. I don't have any doubts about being a good mom anymore-my life thus far has been about proving people wrong and doing the opposite of what I've been shown, and this is just another way to continue with that theme. So, I feel good. I may still be shaky and unsure, but I feel good that my life is heading in some direction. It's kinda cool to be able to look at anyone and find at least one quality that I want to emulate. I look at myself a year or two ago and I smile at how much I've grown and how far I've come. Im...excited.
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Is it possible to have feelings for someone you've never seen...that you really don't know anything about aside from whos in their life...?