Post-rage
When I look back on the last journal entry I made a few hours ago, I realise how ridiculous I sound. I used so many "I mean"s and "seriously"s that it wasn't even funny. It was like my entire vocabulary was suddenly more or less limited to just those two phrases, which will not get you very far in life...
Today has been a pretty uneventful day, Photoshop-wise. After working on calendars three days straight, this is the first day that I haven't touched a date. I hope it won't stay like this because I have a tendency to never get to work on my calendars again once I've stopped. Someone give me a swift kick in the pants if that happens, please. Basically, all that I have done that counts as "productive" is to make a 650x300px banner, which I can't show anywhere because of contest restrictions.
It's 1:19am now; and I just finished my design drawing work. I always get the feeling that my work is much too simplistic considering some of the levels of art in the class, but honestly, technical drawing is not my thing at all. I take the class, am forced to do the work and I do it; I just don't do it well. It's kind of embarrassing, especially when people have been telling you more or less all your life that your art is good (and in the case of a lot of my relatives: "DON'T BECOME AN ARTIST, AH. YOU GOING TO STARVE TO DEATH ONE, LAH. SO DON'T BECOME ARTIST, OKAY?"). I just kind of feel like I'm not exactly in the right place, and maybe I would end up having a mid-life crisis later on. Who knows? Either way, though, I'm going to give this a shot. At the very least, I know that my Photoshopping skills and personal aesthetic are good. I take my MADT teacher's word for it. But really, is there much industry at all for someone who makes something pretty and pastel?
Frankly, I don't think that the work that I do right now is going to get me anywhere. It's great making Hetalia wallpapers and using pretty CLAMP pictures for my work, or scouring the Internet for pictures of beautiful models to work with, but when it really comes down to it, I wouldn't put it in my portfolio. It's just going to look bad when you say that you took someone else's pictures and put them all together. A lot of people actually don't realise that just putting things together on Photoshop is a skill and art in itself and they tend to look down on it as being a cheap, quick way out. I'm going to reserve judgment on what I do right now and whether it's good or bad until I get that camera I'm saving up for. One of the things that gives me an ounce of confidence is that the first time I did photography seriously, most of the pictures actually turned out really well. I'm going to give using my own pictures when I get my camera in my graphics, and hopefully, the quality of work still stands up. The only problem is that I like working with pictures of people and I'm too chronically shy to approach someone and ask them if they would please be a model for this picture because 1) it just sounds weird and 2) pretty sure they're going to think I'm some kind of pervert. XD
Anyway. This is why I'm not allowed to stay up late at night, sleep deprived and nodding off to sleep at the keyboard. I start rambling; which is a bad habit every single one of us in this family has when they're tired. It's really quite funny when you get us all in a room together. We sound like a band of drunkards.
Today has been a pretty uneventful day, Photoshop-wise. After working on calendars three days straight, this is the first day that I haven't touched a date. I hope it won't stay like this because I have a tendency to never get to work on my calendars again once I've stopped. Someone give me a swift kick in the pants if that happens, please. Basically, all that I have done that counts as "productive" is to make a 650x300px banner, which I can't show anywhere because of contest restrictions.
It's 1:19am now; and I just finished my design drawing work. I always get the feeling that my work is much too simplistic considering some of the levels of art in the class, but honestly, technical drawing is not my thing at all. I take the class, am forced to do the work and I do it; I just don't do it well. It's kind of embarrassing, especially when people have been telling you more or less all your life that your art is good (and in the case of a lot of my relatives: "DON'T BECOME AN ARTIST, AH. YOU GOING TO STARVE TO DEATH ONE, LAH. SO DON'T BECOME ARTIST, OKAY?"). I just kind of feel like I'm not exactly in the right place, and maybe I would end up having a mid-life crisis later on. Who knows? Either way, though, I'm going to give this a shot. At the very least, I know that my Photoshopping skills and personal aesthetic are good. I take my MADT teacher's word for it. But really, is there much industry at all for someone who makes something pretty and pastel?
Frankly, I don't think that the work that I do right now is going to get me anywhere. It's great making Hetalia wallpapers and using pretty CLAMP pictures for my work, or scouring the Internet for pictures of beautiful models to work with, but when it really comes down to it, I wouldn't put it in my portfolio. It's just going to look bad when you say that you took someone else's pictures and put them all together. A lot of people actually don't realise that just putting things together on Photoshop is a skill and art in itself and they tend to look down on it as being a cheap, quick way out. I'm going to reserve judgment on what I do right now and whether it's good or bad until I get that camera I'm saving up for. One of the things that gives me an ounce of confidence is that the first time I did photography seriously, most of the pictures actually turned out really well. I'm going to give using my own pictures when I get my camera in my graphics, and hopefully, the quality of work still stands up. The only problem is that I like working with pictures of people and I'm too chronically shy to approach someone and ask them if they would please be a model for this picture because 1) it just sounds weird and 2) pretty sure they're going to think I'm some kind of pervert. XD
Anyway. This is why I'm not allowed to stay up late at night, sleep deprived and nodding off to sleep at the keyboard. I start rambling; which is a bad habit every single one of us in this family has when they're tired. It's really quite funny when you get us all in a room together. We sound like a band of drunkards.