bla bla bla dribble bla dribble bla bla dribble dribble bla bli bla
I really want to write something important right now, something worthwhile. I can't think of anything worthwhile to write probably because I have nothing worthwhile to write, but I'm still trying to. Perhaps by denouncing my own efforts to say something I'll find something to say.
...nothing. Dribble is all I can accomplish at this hour. I should be doing that history report, or maybe that biology lab, or maybe studying for spanish. I can't see why. I can't see why because I don't want to see why and I don't know why I don't. If every effort I take to do anything really doesn't affect anything in the long run, then why should not doing anything help. Is a lack of effort going to make me right. I think the mere fact that the existencialists wrote books proves they are wrong. Thats what I have to say. The existence of an existencialist work of art, literature, or any kind of work proves that existencialism is bullshit, but it's so close to being right it makes me want to vomit in approval.
maybe the impossibility of anything is really what makes everything possible. maybe god is just an eternal irony that is a bit hard to figure out, but wouldn't be funny if it was explained to us.
I'm going to research the Russian Civil War now. I'm telling you that so you might assume this whole thing was really a procrastinatory effort, so you won't blame me so much for trying to sound smart, but this apology proves that I am an ass and want to sound smart even if it means breaking down my efforts to avoid sounding like I want to sound more intelligent than I am. Honestly, I just want to write and maybe be heard and maybe have someone go, hey, that makes sense, or hey, that's stupid. I don't necessarily want to be preachy about it, even though I love to do so.
ok goodnight
...nothing. Dribble is all I can accomplish at this hour. I should be doing that history report, or maybe that biology lab, or maybe studying for spanish. I can't see why. I can't see why because I don't want to see why and I don't know why I don't. If every effort I take to do anything really doesn't affect anything in the long run, then why should not doing anything help. Is a lack of effort going to make me right. I think the mere fact that the existencialists wrote books proves they are wrong. Thats what I have to say. The existence of an existencialist work of art, literature, or any kind of work proves that existencialism is bullshit, but it's so close to being right it makes me want to vomit in approval.
maybe the impossibility of anything is really what makes everything possible. maybe god is just an eternal irony that is a bit hard to figure out, but wouldn't be funny if it was explained to us.
I'm going to research the Russian Civil War now. I'm telling you that so you might assume this whole thing was really a procrastinatory effort, so you won't blame me so much for trying to sound smart, but this apology proves that I am an ass and want to sound smart even if it means breaking down my efforts to avoid sounding like I want to sound more intelligent than I am. Honestly, I just want to write and maybe be heard and maybe have someone go, hey, that makes sense, or hey, that's stupid. I don't necessarily want to be preachy about it, even though I love to do so.
ok goodnight