Just one of those days..
Alright, I know it's supposed to be all Christmasy and stuffs. Chase and Aaron were here, yet I'm still just having a real depressing day. We went to the movies last night, the three of us. There was this really pretty girl that worked at the theater, she also worked at hot topic.. Well anyways, the three of us didn't have anything else to do, so we were talking to the workers and just goofing around. (The movie hadn't started yet.) So we were all making funny joked and stuff, the guys all doing their best (Yes, me too, I'll admit.) to look good infront of this really pretty girl, and Aaron hit me, jokingly I guess. All I know is, it hurt. And set me off like a Bomb. He thought we were joking and he just kept messing, and I was really pissed, and slammed him into the wall, holding him there, on the wall, so I would not kill him. I was litterally about ready to rip his throat out right then and there. If there's one thing I hate more than being lonely, it's meeting someone I think is nice, and my friends try to make me look stupid infront of her. Oh, speaking of which, I've taken in guessing Amanda is completely oblivious to the fact that I'm even alive. It seems that there's probably still some deep dark love for Cory in there. Figures. I'm too scared to call her, knowing that all I probably get is odd sounds, or maybe some her talking to someone in the background, or rejection.
On a side note.. I got my actual Diploma Saturday in the mail. "High School Diploma" ..This makes me quite a bit happy.. yet.. not over all this.
If someone actually reads this, please. Just kill me. =) ..I have everything a guy could ever want! Well, almost. I practicly live by myself, almost every electronic known to man.. yet, I'm still unhappy. I would gladly give everything up just for a chance to be happy with someone for once, and not get screwed over. That someone is not around here. There's no one for me here, I need to get away from this horrid hellhole of a redneck town. ..I'm completely starting to lose my friendship with Aaron.. He's spending all his time practicly with Sarah. Even though we made a promise to eachother, that our friendship would come before all else. He's like a brother to me. And it hurts really bad, to see that brother almost being ripped away from me. I don't want that to happen. But, he is happy. I just wish he'd understand this without getting mad at me. Anyways.. this is getting a bit long. I'm sorry everyone.. If anyone reads this. But, I'm just having one of those days, I've been happy for a while now, just lightened kinda mood. I guess it finally caught up with me.
Love you all,
~Iku
On a side note.. I got my actual Diploma Saturday in the mail. "High School Diploma" ..This makes me quite a bit happy.. yet.. not over all this.
If someone actually reads this, please. Just kill me. =) ..I have everything a guy could ever want! Well, almost. I practicly live by myself, almost every electronic known to man.. yet, I'm still unhappy. I would gladly give everything up just for a chance to be happy with someone for once, and not get screwed over. That someone is not around here. There's no one for me here, I need to get away from this horrid hellhole of a redneck town. ..I'm completely starting to lose my friendship with Aaron.. He's spending all his time practicly with Sarah. Even though we made a promise to eachother, that our friendship would come before all else. He's like a brother to me. And it hurts really bad, to see that brother almost being ripped away from me. I don't want that to happen. But, he is happy. I just wish he'd understand this without getting mad at me. Anyways.. this is getting a bit long. I'm sorry everyone.. If anyone reads this. But, I'm just having one of those days, I've been happy for a while now, just lightened kinda mood. I guess it finally caught up with me.
Love you all,
~Iku