people suck...then there's me
Argh, this whole week has sucked...it has been nothing but a big headache
It's all going to get better, I know so ;)
I've been sick all week last week
fever, stomach cramps...fuck if I know what I had
I had like 5 ppl telling me I prolly have mono...which
I said is ridiculous because I haven't shared nothing or kissed with
anyone in a long time...like 6 months I dont know why I would just
get it all of a sudden. I'm going to my doctor Tuesday to figure out
what it was or if I still have something...I believe I'm over it for the
most part, I'm feeling better...
I'm trying to figure out where I'm going to move to and who I'm going
to move with...there's only really 2 ppl I would probably move with, but
at the same time I'm trying to get team leader in my department so I
can get paid more and won't have to worry about roommates. And you know
if I decide to have a roommate, I dont want just any ordinary party animal that
has a need to drink every night. As far as I'm concerned I deal with the
alcoholism enough at home I am sick and tired of it. I mean if you go out
once in awhile and drink that's fine, but every week is just annoying. I want
someone who also has a job and is stable with supporting themself because
I'm not paying to have someone live with me, know what I mean? So my choice
has been very selective and picky because hey, I have standards what can I say...
I understand that we all have standards of what we want our bf's to look like...
sometime those standards are far from reality (I have a few trust me), but I dunno
you just really have to look past all the labels and the image and find out what's going
on in the head and in the heart. There is one person that I have been able to get that
far with so far. He's a really great friend and we can talk about like anything, and the
past couple weeks he's been really the only one that can put a huge smile on my face
and make me feel better. It's not everyday you come along to a person like that. People
assume because he's a lot older than me that he is just some perv trying to get inside my
pants. You know what, I have friendar...it's like gaydar but I can tell which ones would
end up being good friends with, and if something more develops...then you know how that
story goes. I will date whoever I want and I do not need approval for it.
I've been having a hype for starbucks lately...their vanilla creme rocks!
-ahem-
So anyways...I am meeting a lot of nice ppl which is awesome. At the same time I'm talking
to some of the ppl that I once knew. It is nice when you wonder when some of your friends
you were talking to online just kinda drift off and you dont have that period where you just
kinda stop talking to each other...and then you get back together. I had 2 instances of that
1 of them because he changes his damn screen name so damn much IAN!! grrr u bitch :P
You know honestly I've only met Ian once but he is just so cool, and such a nice person. I'm really
glad that he talks to me, and I hope to hang out with him again sometime. Ian is just one big
ball of energy lol.
I know there are a few ppl that I'm being a bitch to right now, some that I'm not even talking
to. To be quite honest, I don't apologize for it. I am who I am, I make decisions based on
my feelings and if you don't like that, then I guess you shouldn't talk to me anymore.
You know what annoys me is when you do something for somebody and you don't get any
credit for it. I take this guy out and we had fun and everything - it was considered a date
and then poof after that day, you don't hear anything from them, and then you have to find out
yourself that he has a bf. I'm not pissed at the fact that this person got a bf, but I'm pissed
because he won't talk to me anymore. If I ever have a boyfriend, it is not going to stop me
from meeting new people and it is not going to stop me from having continuous friendships
with people. People who just ditch you once they find what they want, that's just inconsiderate
and I won't be friends with people like that.
So as you can see, this is where all my negative energy gets transferred to. I'd rather be in a
journal than towards someone else, because I can be an ugly bitch if needed...
I think this just about sums up everything I want to say, so I'm signing off
It's all going to get better, I know so ;)
I've been sick all week last week
fever, stomach cramps...fuck if I know what I had
I had like 5 ppl telling me I prolly have mono...which
I said is ridiculous because I haven't shared nothing or kissed with
anyone in a long time...like 6 months I dont know why I would just
get it all of a sudden. I'm going to my doctor Tuesday to figure out
what it was or if I still have something...I believe I'm over it for the
most part, I'm feeling better...
I'm trying to figure out where I'm going to move to and who I'm going
to move with...there's only really 2 ppl I would probably move with, but
at the same time I'm trying to get team leader in my department so I
can get paid more and won't have to worry about roommates. And you know
if I decide to have a roommate, I dont want just any ordinary party animal that
has a need to drink every night. As far as I'm concerned I deal with the
alcoholism enough at home I am sick and tired of it. I mean if you go out
once in awhile and drink that's fine, but every week is just annoying. I want
someone who also has a job and is stable with supporting themself because
I'm not paying to have someone live with me, know what I mean? So my choice
has been very selective and picky because hey, I have standards what can I say...
I understand that we all have standards of what we want our bf's to look like...
sometime those standards are far from reality (I have a few trust me), but I dunno
you just really have to look past all the labels and the image and find out what's going
on in the head and in the heart. There is one person that I have been able to get that
far with so far. He's a really great friend and we can talk about like anything, and the
past couple weeks he's been really the only one that can put a huge smile on my face
and make me feel better. It's not everyday you come along to a person like that. People
assume because he's a lot older than me that he is just some perv trying to get inside my
pants. You know what, I have friendar...it's like gaydar but I can tell which ones would
end up being good friends with, and if something more develops...then you know how that
story goes. I will date whoever I want and I do not need approval for it.
I've been having a hype for starbucks lately...their vanilla creme rocks!
-ahem-
So anyways...I am meeting a lot of nice ppl which is awesome. At the same time I'm talking
to some of the ppl that I once knew. It is nice when you wonder when some of your friends
you were talking to online just kinda drift off and you dont have that period where you just
kinda stop talking to each other...and then you get back together. I had 2 instances of that
1 of them because he changes his damn screen name so damn much IAN!! grrr u bitch :P
You know honestly I've only met Ian once but he is just so cool, and such a nice person. I'm really
glad that he talks to me, and I hope to hang out with him again sometime. Ian is just one big
ball of energy lol.
I know there are a few ppl that I'm being a bitch to right now, some that I'm not even talking
to. To be quite honest, I don't apologize for it. I am who I am, I make decisions based on
my feelings and if you don't like that, then I guess you shouldn't talk to me anymore.
You know what annoys me is when you do something for somebody and you don't get any
credit for it. I take this guy out and we had fun and everything - it was considered a date
and then poof after that day, you don't hear anything from them, and then you have to find out
yourself that he has a bf. I'm not pissed at the fact that this person got a bf, but I'm pissed
because he won't talk to me anymore. If I ever have a boyfriend, it is not going to stop me
from meeting new people and it is not going to stop me from having continuous friendships
with people. People who just ditch you once they find what they want, that's just inconsiderate
and I won't be friends with people like that.
So as you can see, this is where all my negative energy gets transferred to. I'd rather be in a
journal than towards someone else, because I can be an ugly bitch if needed...
I think this just about sums up everything I want to say, so I'm signing off