decisions and new things
i decided to stop depending on drugs. i spent the last week (over a week actually) detoxing from speed and bringing my tolerance way back down. i don't want to need it every day. i hate that, and it makes me hate myself. i've always thought drugs should be used for fun, not for getting through the day. recreational use only. and it got way beyond that. i've never been so out of hand with anything, and i've been out of hand with a lot of things in my life.
made a new friend at work. talked to him for most of my shift today. he's kind of like a little brother sort of friend. if that makes sense. i'll probably end up hanging out with him outside of work. i don't know. i've never really had any friends at work, with the exception of OFB, seeing as i hired all of them.
my throat is pretty much better. i had a gaping hole in my tonsil, freaked out, went to the free clinic, found out i had strep, got the meanest antibiotics ever, and now the hole is mostly healed up. nice. i was only smoking like 3 or 4 cigarettes a day while it was bad. now im back to smoking too much. oops.
now im gonna try to find some fun. i dont work tomorrow, and i intend to make the most of the night.
<3
when everybody loves you, yeah that's just about as fucked up as you can be
made a new friend at work. talked to him for most of my shift today. he's kind of like a little brother sort of friend. if that makes sense. i'll probably end up hanging out with him outside of work. i don't know. i've never really had any friends at work, with the exception of OFB, seeing as i hired all of them.
my throat is pretty much better. i had a gaping hole in my tonsil, freaked out, went to the free clinic, found out i had strep, got the meanest antibiotics ever, and now the hole is mostly healed up. nice. i was only smoking like 3 or 4 cigarettes a day while it was bad. now im back to smoking too much. oops.
now im gonna try to find some fun. i dont work tomorrow, and i intend to make the most of the night.
<3
when everybody loves you, yeah that's just about as fucked up as you can be