another random one

[iknowicanmakeit]

so yeah...even though i have actual stuff that i can write about im still sticking to the random stuff. just like a minute or so ago i was laying on the couch in the living room just looking at the piano wanted to play it so badly. of course i didn't because it is one of the many things i don't feel comfortable doing when other people are in the house. i don't really know why, but i just don't like other people hearing what i play even if im actually playing well. now if i had started playing just a few minutes ago it would have most likely sounded pretty bad since it's been a long time since i've actually done it. just last week i was listening to my dad play a song...i think maybe im amazed...and there's one part that has a small portion of a chromatic scale in it and since my dad taught himself to play he would always fumble over that part. i had just woken up so i came downstairs and taught him a different fingering that makes it a lot easier once you get used to it. well, ever since then i've kind of been wanting to sit down and play a little. the music class and all the piano parts in the hush sound only make me want to do it more. i might try a little after work tomorrow before my mom gets back. im kind of scared that im going to be awful though. the keys felt kind of heavy when i touched them earlier. i guess i shouldn't have let myself give up on playing like i did.

heh. next thing you know im going to want to pick up my flute again. hmm...maybe not. lol