my first angry post and my first mushy post ALL IN ONE (go me)
man that crespi "dance" blew something huge and horrible. and i love dances so you know it must have been pretty bad. after reading the funny names of people on that donation wall and incorporating ballet into freak dancing we finally managed to escape where we found a large group of refugees in the ralphs parking lot, and still more at mcdonalds. there we enjoyed throwing ketchup packets and plastic chip n dales models. yes, those actually came in a happy meal. hmm yes the best part of the dance was leaving and then celebrating our escape. go crespi...
last night just proves that nothing i do will ever be enough. so now i'm updating about it because that's what you do when you have a lot on your mind and venting to people still doesnt help. i really did make an effort, as those who were there saw, but i was met only with rolled eyes and cold shoulders. so i'm done. i'm sick of trying so hard and getting absolutely no response other than hypocrisy and criticism. i am so DONE. no more trying from me. i felt bad and i tried to make up for it but it doesnt seem to matter to you. so if you want to hate me and my boyfriend and insult him nonstop in front of me and tell me how i should spend my time then GO THE FUCK AHEAD. i dont care and it's the best feeling in the world. but just know that despite what you may have thought then and now, i'm not going anywhere and i'll always be here for you should you want me. dont forget that.
now to those who have stuck by me (you know who you are): you guys mean so much to me. the beginning of this school year hasnt been too much fun on the social scene and i cant tell you how much i appreciate that you've been here to help me through it. but because you've been such awesome friends, i feel like i've taken advantage of you sometimes and i'm SO sorry. so thank you for being there and i love you more than you know. :)
anyway, i hope everyone's having an awesome weekend. hopefully kairos will be more fun than the junior retreat. i cant wait for the SHARE TABLE! try to guess my contribution. no, you're wrong, it's kit kats. of course. and after that we get to find out our mock trial case!! possibly even more exciting than the share table, i do believe.
so i'll see my lvhsians on tuesday. enjoy your day off people. sleep in. do nothing productive. mock someone.
i love you ALL. and..... HOW BOUT THEM EAGLES NOW BIOTCHES!!!!!! that's what i THOUGHT.
last night just proves that nothing i do will ever be enough. so now i'm updating about it because that's what you do when you have a lot on your mind and venting to people still doesnt help. i really did make an effort, as those who were there saw, but i was met only with rolled eyes and cold shoulders. so i'm done. i'm sick of trying so hard and getting absolutely no response other than hypocrisy and criticism. i am so DONE. no more trying from me. i felt bad and i tried to make up for it but it doesnt seem to matter to you. so if you want to hate me and my boyfriend and insult him nonstop in front of me and tell me how i should spend my time then GO THE FUCK AHEAD. i dont care and it's the best feeling in the world. but just know that despite what you may have thought then and now, i'm not going anywhere and i'll always be here for you should you want me. dont forget that.
now to those who have stuck by me (you know who you are): you guys mean so much to me. the beginning of this school year hasnt been too much fun on the social scene and i cant tell you how much i appreciate that you've been here to help me through it. but because you've been such awesome friends, i feel like i've taken advantage of you sometimes and i'm SO sorry. so thank you for being there and i love you more than you know. :)
anyway, i hope everyone's having an awesome weekend. hopefully kairos will be more fun than the junior retreat. i cant wait for the SHARE TABLE! try to guess my contribution. no, you're wrong, it's kit kats. of course. and after that we get to find out our mock trial case!! possibly even more exciting than the share table, i do believe.
so i'll see my lvhsians on tuesday. enjoy your day off people. sleep in. do nothing productive. mock someone.
i love you ALL. and..... HOW BOUT THEM EAGLES NOW BIOTCHES!!!!!! that's what i THOUGHT.