FAIL
fuck....
note to self: I'M NEVER DOING THAT AGAIN /note to self
>.<
god i'm an idiot
i say that way too many times and never really mean it but i soooo mean it right now
-slaps face- bad anne marie bad
i didn't do anything that would socially bring me down or cause death to me in any instance just a general wow i'm an idiot moment
i should be studying but meh....so don't feel like it
so much to do so little time
things to do:
1. study for psych/art/maths
2. take tests
3. clean room
4. get ready for finals
5. mail all stuff back home/ sell excess luggage
6. throw out excessive amount of bottles...i suppose that goes under clean room but i feel like it deserves it's own little number
7. find inspiration for a rap song for jdawg and finally get her career off the ground
7a. try and be talented enough and clever enough to write a rap song
7b. figure out the deeper meanings behind rap
8. return the birdcage to movie store
9. get back to writing at least an hour a day @.@:;
9a. write a better outline
9b. actually FOCUS
9c. plan a nice routine for writing but ultimately fail at following it
10. get a job
11. get into a college in the east
12. BEAT PERSONA 3 FES and PERSONA 4
13. get "healthy" ewww....god damn hate reg cigs 2 weeks and no menthols MOOT ....god i miss menthols @.@;;;;;
so a month ago i thought it would be great if i finally got myself off of smoking....for "health" benefits....i noticed alot...that never cared about price and that i really do get twitchy if i don't have a pack on me....so i was like alright...menthols are seriously bad shit so i should wean myself off it and maybe perhaps smoking altogether...god i'm going to need to find a new hobby to release pain, stress, panic, anger, and depression all in one and i don't think therapy can handle all that....cuz that'd mean i'd be there 24/7....drinking is no no sure i'll have the occasional drink but it's not my scene....hopefully in a year or two i'll be down to just lights EWW god fuck...and won't need it at all...
yeah i've been in therapy for the past 2 months and i think i've accomplished alot but i know it's not enough to pay someone to listen to my shit...sure i feel a lil better afterwards but not like wow i'm feel fucking fantastic....
hand is numb
enough typing for now @.@;;
wow this is a long post
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note to self: I'M NEVER DOING THAT AGAIN /note to self
>.<
god i'm an idiot
i say that way too many times and never really mean it but i soooo mean it right now
-slaps face- bad anne marie bad
i didn't do anything that would socially bring me down or cause death to me in any instance just a general wow i'm an idiot moment
i should be studying but meh....so don't feel like it
so much to do so little time
things to do:
1. study for psych/art/maths
2. take tests
3. clean room
4. get ready for finals
5. mail all stuff back home/ sell excess luggage
6. throw out excessive amount of bottles...i suppose that goes under clean room but i feel like it deserves it's own little number
7. find inspiration for a rap song for jdawg and finally get her career off the ground
7a. try and be talented enough and clever enough to write a rap song
7b. figure out the deeper meanings behind rap
8. return the birdcage to movie store
9. get back to writing at least an hour a day @.@:;
9a. write a better outline
9b. actually FOCUS
9c. plan a nice routine for writing but ultimately fail at following it
10. get a job
11. get into a college in the east
12. BEAT PERSONA 3 FES and PERSONA 4
13. get "healthy" ewww....god damn hate reg cigs 2 weeks and no menthols MOOT ....god i miss menthols @.@;;;;;
so a month ago i thought it would be great if i finally got myself off of smoking....for "health" benefits....i noticed alot...that never cared about price and that i really do get twitchy if i don't have a pack on me....so i was like alright...menthols are seriously bad shit so i should wean myself off it and maybe perhaps smoking altogether...god i'm going to need to find a new hobby to release pain, stress, panic, anger, and depression all in one and i don't think therapy can handle all that....cuz that'd mean i'd be there 24/7....drinking is no no sure i'll have the occasional drink but it's not my scene....hopefully in a year or two i'll be down to just lights EWW god fuck...and won't need it at all...
yeah i've been in therapy for the past 2 months and i think i've accomplished alot but i know it's not enough to pay someone to listen to my shit...sure i feel a lil better afterwards but not like wow i'm feel fucking fantastic....
hand is numb
enough typing for now @.@;;
wow this is a long post
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