i'm the grizzly bear lost in the woods.

[ikneltbeforeyou]

i'm not being dramatic or anything but i feel like
i've already lost you.

i don't know what's what anymore.
i'm just having some sort of out-of-body experience.
Like how i'm seeing this girl screw everything up, i scream and say don't do it.
But she does it anyway and then i realize its me.

i have never heard you tell me how you actually felt about me.
and it had to be only at such a situation.

i've tried to be so many things and at my best throughout the time i've been with you.
i know you've quietly tried your best.
i just silently yearn for your affection.
i just wanted to be held by you; even if for that brief moment.

i don't know how to cope anymore but i guess the ball is in your court
right now.
And all i feel is; a typhoon is coming my way.

i've tried to be my best for you; all i want is for you to love me unconditionally.
maybe its just me.

i so dearly need my resilience right now.
please just let me tide it over.
i need to have more faith.
faith and my resilience.
just please.

even abbey gives me her disapproving look of judgment.