The beating of your heart baby...
Gah I love Hidden In Plain View.
Garden Statement
The traffic's backed for miles
on these quiet suburban roads
while the rubber necking strangers
are dying to see this victim's wounds
cause he’s all alone
with his notebooks and poems
in this empty grave where he wrote
all of his secrets that became his lyrics
with no intent to show anyone
and we give and we give
but its all for nothing
its all for nothing
we try to resist but I give
everything and its all for nothing
so the panic sets and cycles
his mind for restless sleep
while the blood sucking leeches
contaminate every line they read
just leave him alone in this dark room
this white sheet tightly wrapped cocoon
cause its no secret
I fucking need this
Like I don’t need anyone
I've fallen asleep with my eyes open
(and you'll lie to all your friends)
(about sights you never saw)
shutting down and off the lights
(and you'll preach to all the press)
(about what you don't know at all)
cause after all of this it's all or nothing
still I wouldn't try to fight
So let me drown so I can breathe again
I’m through choking and suffocating
on alter egos and alterior motives
which weigh you down and take control of
the way you are and the things that you need
the life you live and the dreams that you dream
distort and blur all in slow motion
they broke down and now you're broken
and it’s sadder than the saddest movie
I ever saw but with out the beauty
so I stopped watching, I stopped caring
I lost all interest and I stopped wearing
these plastic smiles I’ll wash my hands clean
I'll forget that you forgot about me
and I’ll live the life, the big city feeling
cause it’s better than suburban dreaming
Living off the friends that hate you
who talk shit on me
like I don't know who my real friends are
anymore no I don’t know you anymore
and it’s sadder than the saddest movie
I ever saw but without the beauty
so I'll stopped watching, I'll stopped caring
spill the ink and spill your guts again
GAH! I love that song. I went to the effing CIRCUS for the first time ever tonight (err last night). It was a hugantic letdown. 1 clown. 0 monkeys. 2893 Chineese men. 1 cute asian chick. 9357 ugly ladies and guys. 2 acceptable long haired muscle men. 1 really annoying ring leader guy. 1 amazon looking redhaired old bimbo. oh man was it fun to dance and scream when all the other lame people in REDBLUFF were just sitting there like the cattle they raise. Chelle was so funny. She was louder than everyone and she was immitating porn to the Circus music. I almost talked a lady into giving me a baloon thing for only a dollar but then we had to go. Becky was like drooling over these hot men. It was lovely. I had some over due fun.
I have no idea what to do. I have been invited to 2 proms. I thought they were on seperate dates so I was all ready to go to both of them. BUT they are both on the same day. I feel awful about it.
#1 is with Jason. I told him about a month ago that I would go to Prom with him. His prom is in SF. He was supposed to come pick me up the day before prom..wed go to prom...hed take me home the day after. He really wants me to go with him. He'd be crushed if I didnt.
#2 is with Thom. When I said I'd go with him he totally thought it was a joke. He has had the same long hair forever...and he is cutting it just for me...hes even putting some bleach in it. His Prom is in Redding. He's a really awesome guy. He will be crushe if I don't go with him.
They are both good guys and would be unreplacable as friends. I don't want either of them to be upset...and not able to go to their prom. I feel like such an a hole but I didn't find out that I had the dates mixed up until today.
WHAT DO I DOOOOOOO?!?!?!
I like a boy. I like a boy. I like a boy. I like a boy.
lets start fresh this time
we've reached this point again
you know I've waited for these days and weeks to end
saddest playing so long
as tears roll down your face
I hear them too
and I'm thinking about you
sick of lonely skies
and missing long goodbyes
you know id die for one last phone call just to say goodnight
I wanna tell you that
I hope this song will remind you of the time we spent away
your eyes and mine
will only meet on better days
I hope you know
your home is here with me
but for now ill miss the things that you appreciate in me
I'll sleep next to the phone tonight
your home is here with me ...your home is here with me
adelphi accoustifide
<3 Loves to my pookies. C$