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i just went on myspace for the first time in forever. hell im on the internet for the first time in forever. so i look at all the people i am friends with and i really havent talked to anyone in forever. i feel like i dont know people anymore. ok so yeah ill admit, i miss detroit. i miss going to national every night and actually seeing my friends in front of me. i fucking hate the phone. im sorry if i dont call. im moving into my own apartment again and im afraid because i hope i dont go insane. i feel like im turning into this person that i dont even know. the anxiety shit it starting again. only things are causing it to happen that didnt before. usually i'd see a person in Detroit that i hated and i would freak out but now its school. i have no motivation anymore. i want to drop out and do ceramics for the rest of my life. but then i realize thats retarded and its probably just because i have shitty classes this quarter that dont make any fucking sense and of course everyone else gets it and its so fucking easy for everyone else! yeah i suck.