holy shit on a sandwich
I have, regretably, but somewhat fortunately, entirely forgotten about livejournal.
So, Here's my deal. Life has been crazy, and since no one really knows what's been going on... except for my boyfriend and Stan [since I spoke to him most recently] I'll recount.
Christie stopped speaking to me because the scumbag and her moved in. That sucked.
I went back to school full time a while ago. This has been a trip. Since then, I've been overloaded with all this fantastic, challenging, musical knowledge that's been filling up every spare second of my time. I love it, and it's killed off a lot of the desire to do self destructive things... drink too much, feel like shit about myself, self criticize until I'm a wreck... etc. This is one of the reasons I've been pretty non-existant for the past year.
I'm not gonna brush this next one aside, I'll have to admit.. getting into the first truly loving relationship of my entire life has mindfucked me. Everyone knows me! I'm not that kinda girl. I was the girl who fucked around with a million people and whined about how I never got a shot. Well, I took a risk and found out that I had brick walls millions of feet high. This also came at a time in my life when there has been 3 deaths in my family, a ton of stress, and all that residual anger and Self preservation going on from when my best friend fucked me over. I withdrew into myself for a long while, and there were very few people who could reach me. I'd rather not talk about that portion of time though. George knows about this...
So, I suppose I'll apologize. No, that's not really the way to do it. I'm sorry.
I've been fucked up by disappearing like everyone else has disappeared on me. But then again, I feel bad to say that I really thought there would be more of a reaction to me slowly not coming around anymore. I thought, at the very least, that a couple of you would miss me. The only people who seemed to give a shit were Stan and Denise... I should've figured though. They've always understood me... even when I'm goin nuts.
Anyway... Life's got it's hold on me, but I also miss all of my old friends who I put on the back burner while trying to understand and work through some things. Get in touch with me people.
As always, the AIM is still:: sckmylft1 [or] ikilledkerouac. My email has changed since then though, it's now:: adrianna@vigilantelove.net.
Also, I moved my blog to myspace for a while, but i'm setting up a new one at www.vigilantelove.net [it's not working yet, i'll post when it's all up and running.]
So, Here's my deal. Life has been crazy, and since no one really knows what's been going on... except for my boyfriend and Stan [since I spoke to him most recently] I'll recount.
Christie stopped speaking to me because the scumbag and her moved in. That sucked.
I went back to school full time a while ago. This has been a trip. Since then, I've been overloaded with all this fantastic, challenging, musical knowledge that's been filling up every spare second of my time. I love it, and it's killed off a lot of the desire to do self destructive things... drink too much, feel like shit about myself, self criticize until I'm a wreck... etc. This is one of the reasons I've been pretty non-existant for the past year.
I'm not gonna brush this next one aside, I'll have to admit.. getting into the first truly loving relationship of my entire life has mindfucked me. Everyone knows me! I'm not that kinda girl. I was the girl who fucked around with a million people and whined about how I never got a shot. Well, I took a risk and found out that I had brick walls millions of feet high. This also came at a time in my life when there has been 3 deaths in my family, a ton of stress, and all that residual anger and Self preservation going on from when my best friend fucked me over. I withdrew into myself for a long while, and there were very few people who could reach me. I'd rather not talk about that portion of time though. George knows about this...
So, I suppose I'll apologize. No, that's not really the way to do it. I'm sorry.
I've been fucked up by disappearing like everyone else has disappeared on me. But then again, I feel bad to say that I really thought there would be more of a reaction to me slowly not coming around anymore. I thought, at the very least, that a couple of you would miss me. The only people who seemed to give a shit were Stan and Denise... I should've figured though. They've always understood me... even when I'm goin nuts.
Anyway... Life's got it's hold on me, but I also miss all of my old friends who I put on the back burner while trying to understand and work through some things. Get in touch with me people.
As always, the AIM is still:: sckmylft1 [or] ikilledkerouac. My email has changed since then though, it's now:: adrianna@vigilantelove.net.
Also, I moved my blog to myspace for a while, but i'm setting up a new one at www.vigilantelove.net [it's not working yet, i'll post when it's all up and running.]