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hey so richard will be happy i will up date this thing..
well i dont know what to think of myself latly ... i am not me .. i am wanting to do things i hate then i am thinking lots of things i shouldnt... then i am just like whoa! i mean the other day i really did want to have sex with my boyfriend... and almost did but .. i didnt .. i never had that happen to me before.. then i have been talking to this kid about weed like everyday ... and he just makes it sound fun ... then dave got all upset about it ... hes like dont ... you told me not to and now i dont but now you want to ... i have no idea whats going on with me .. not to mention my fucked up family and then my stomach problem ... it sucks... i have no idea whats going on ... life is falling apart bit by bit but at the same time rebuild just in a different way... i think i realized i am a fucking goody goody and i need to get over it .. really ... i dont know ... i need to go sleep .. i am soo ''effing;; tired/
well i dont know what to think of myself latly ... i am not me .. i am wanting to do things i hate then i am thinking lots of things i shouldnt... then i am just like whoa! i mean the other day i really did want to have sex with my boyfriend... and almost did but .. i didnt .. i never had that happen to me before.. then i have been talking to this kid about weed like everyday ... and he just makes it sound fun ... then dave got all upset about it ... hes like dont ... you told me not to and now i dont but now you want to ... i have no idea whats going on with me .. not to mention my fucked up family and then my stomach problem ... it sucks... i have no idea whats going on ... life is falling apart bit by bit but at the same time rebuild just in a different way... i think i realized i am a fucking goody goody and i need to get over it .. really ... i dont know ... i need to go sleep .. i am soo ''effing;; tired/