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ITT tech doesn't accomidate the Pell Grant.
Meaning I can't go.
Meaning my initial plans up to this point are ruined.
I'll be 18 in less than 2 months. Suddenly that seems like pending torture.
I want to move here, to Washington. But I have no roommate, so that's impossible.
So I'm going to stay in Winchester.
The shitty city that it is. The warehouses, graffiti, waste, cocaine. The emptiness that is Winchester, Virginia.
At least I have a backup plan. Yeah, praise be to that.
Gonna move into some old shitty apartments like the towers.
Move in with one of my friends. ASAP. I'm not going to stay with my mom.
I'll get a laptop once I turn 18. Then again that's a promise from my mother so that's not certain either. But hopefully I'll have the internet. Then I can be a Wolfhome junkie again, I guess. No life. Yep.
I'll go to Lord Fairfax Community College for a few years. Get a factory job as soon as I turn 18. Good pay, and fucked up hours for my already fucked up sleeping schedule. I suppose it all worked out, one way or another, just not the way I'd hoped. If it even works out. Shit I don't know.
I feel like my life is meaningless and going downhill.
I'm depressed.
I'm pissed off.
It all feels stolen from me.
& I don't want to type anymore.
Meaning I can't go.
Meaning my initial plans up to this point are ruined.
I'll be 18 in less than 2 months. Suddenly that seems like pending torture.
I want to move here, to Washington. But I have no roommate, so that's impossible.
So I'm going to stay in Winchester.
The shitty city that it is. The warehouses, graffiti, waste, cocaine. The emptiness that is Winchester, Virginia.
At least I have a backup plan. Yeah, praise be to that.
Gonna move into some old shitty apartments like the towers.
Move in with one of my friends. ASAP. I'm not going to stay with my mom.
I'll get a laptop once I turn 18. Then again that's a promise from my mother so that's not certain either. But hopefully I'll have the internet. Then I can be a Wolfhome junkie again, I guess. No life. Yep.
I'll go to Lord Fairfax Community College for a few years. Get a factory job as soon as I turn 18. Good pay, and fucked up hours for my already fucked up sleeping schedule. I suppose it all worked out, one way or another, just not the way I'd hoped. If it even works out. Shit I don't know.
I feel like my life is meaningless and going downhill.
I'm depressed.
I'm pissed off.
It all feels stolen from me.
& I don't want to type anymore.