Maybe time is all we need....
Well, I started seeing this shrink, Dr. Lynn Peters. Kinda boring name, beats mine though so guess I cant critisize. Of course she's completely gorgeous, just what I need right? Sitting around letting another gorgeous girl know how fucked up I am. At first she seemed just, not genuine. I dunno. I just dont buy into people when in the first 5 minutes of meeting me they're pretending they care about me. Dont need the bullshit, I know they care about getting my money, not me.. but I'm desperate. I cant just sit around and let Nikki walk out of my life. I'm sure some of you expected that from me, but too bad. And Tay best not be trying fuckin shit with her.
So anyways, I guess that maybe this shrink chic got though a little. I mean, like, I explained the stuff about Ave.. and.. Lynn was telling me like how I was rationalizing it and all this stuff but I know its wrong deep down. I'm not really sure that I do think it's wrong though. I love her, and she loves me.. Yeah we're brother and sister but like.. I just never saw it as just brother and sister. She means a lot to me. I guess I can see what Lynn meant though. During the therapy session it was just confusing but now afterwards being able to think on it I'm realizing what she was getting at. Like, I'm her big brother, I should be keeping guys like me off her..... Right? I um.. I think. *sighs* It's confusing. It seems so basic but I have no clue really.
Ave makes me feel something with her. It's so raw and passionate. But.. who knows.. maybe I just should forget it.. It'd cause a lot less trouble if I forgot anything I felt about Ave. I mean.. Nikki makes me feel so different but its just a complete satisfaction when I'm with Nik. When she's in my arms all tangled in the sheets, skin on skin after we've made love, it feels absolutely incredible. I'm on top of the world. And, I want that again.. I need to hold her again and be with her, and watch her drift off to sleep everynight. Thats what I want.
I can't want Avery anymore. *swallows hard* I cant. She'd rather Tay anyways, she's said that plenty of times to make it clear. I just cant be the one hurting her anymore. I cant hurt Nikki. And I'm trying baby. I dont want to hurt you again Nik. But.. It's still really soon. I never wanted to hurt you before but I still did. I just dont know what goes wrong with me but I'm trying to fix it so that we can be together again. I want you back so bad Nikki. I love you.
So anyways, I guess that maybe this shrink chic got though a little. I mean, like, I explained the stuff about Ave.. and.. Lynn was telling me like how I was rationalizing it and all this stuff but I know its wrong deep down. I'm not really sure that I do think it's wrong though. I love her, and she loves me.. Yeah we're brother and sister but like.. I just never saw it as just brother and sister. She means a lot to me. I guess I can see what Lynn meant though. During the therapy session it was just confusing but now afterwards being able to think on it I'm realizing what she was getting at. Like, I'm her big brother, I should be keeping guys like me off her..... Right? I um.. I think. *sighs* It's confusing. It seems so basic but I have no clue really.
Ave makes me feel something with her. It's so raw and passionate. But.. who knows.. maybe I just should forget it.. It'd cause a lot less trouble if I forgot anything I felt about Ave. I mean.. Nikki makes me feel so different but its just a complete satisfaction when I'm with Nik. When she's in my arms all tangled in the sheets, skin on skin after we've made love, it feels absolutely incredible. I'm on top of the world. And, I want that again.. I need to hold her again and be with her, and watch her drift off to sleep everynight. Thats what I want.
I can't want Avery anymore. *swallows hard* I cant. She'd rather Tay anyways, she's said that plenty of times to make it clear. I just cant be the one hurting her anymore. I cant hurt Nikki. And I'm trying baby. I dont want to hurt you again Nik. But.. It's still really soon. I never wanted to hurt you before but I still did. I just dont know what goes wrong with me but I'm trying to fix it so that we can be together again. I want you back so bad Nikki. I love you.