back again
Gonna write before I forget, again.
I'm jealous. I don't know if there's a good and bad jealousy, but if there is, then I'm jealous in a good way. If not, then I'm just jealous. Of what?
Of their happiness.
Just the two of them being together, spending time with each other, sleeping with each other, knowing each other...I'm happy for the happiness that they get from the other person. And yes, slightly envious of such feelings of companionship and all that...but it does make me smile to hear them talk about their likes and dislikes, and other stuff I can barely hear but can't quite make out. I smile at their togetherness.
Imagination does wonders in letting you imagine what you think is going on. Guess I have an active one after all.
Saw Giselle at work today. She was with some guy, in her Applebee's uniform, red-and-white striped shirt, short khaki shorts on. Her makeup was a little messed-up, from what I don't know. But she saw me, and we talked a little bit while I was ringing the guy up. Got me thinking...boyfriend maybe? Don't know. I mean, I'm pretty sure she didn't have one when I was trying to talk to her, but in these few weeks since I've left the bowling alley, you never know. She says they're putting her on front counter now. It's 'cause Phil likes her, but we all knew that. He's gonna work around her schedule too, because she told them that she wouldn't work unless they did so. Poor girl holds two jobs, maybe more in the near future. I can only wish her luck in her endeavors. And as for me being interested in her? I've pretty much given it up. I mean, she never wants to call me and let me know what's going on or anything with her schedule, so how am I supposed to find a time? So, unless she calls me,, which in my mind is a very slim chance, nothing will happen between us. Sure, she's attractive and all, but looks aren't everything.
Typing from my roommate's computer. We need a router for the internet to work on my computer; or, at least that's what Comcast says. Whatever. I'll have it up soon, as soon as we get one.
Got better grades than last semester. 2.2 cumulative GPA. better than 1.8. Only got 1 F too. I'm happy. Now I can actually tell my parents what I got, and hopefully get some financial aid.
Can't really think of anything else at the moment. If I haven't told you my current predicament yet, I will soon. Oyasumi nasai.
I'm jealous. I don't know if there's a good and bad jealousy, but if there is, then I'm jealous in a good way. If not, then I'm just jealous. Of what?
Of their happiness.
Just the two of them being together, spending time with each other, sleeping with each other, knowing each other...I'm happy for the happiness that they get from the other person. And yes, slightly envious of such feelings of companionship and all that...but it does make me smile to hear them talk about their likes and dislikes, and other stuff I can barely hear but can't quite make out. I smile at their togetherness.
Imagination does wonders in letting you imagine what you think is going on. Guess I have an active one after all.
Saw Giselle at work today. She was with some guy, in her Applebee's uniform, red-and-white striped shirt, short khaki shorts on. Her makeup was a little messed-up, from what I don't know. But she saw me, and we talked a little bit while I was ringing the guy up. Got me thinking...boyfriend maybe? Don't know. I mean, I'm pretty sure she didn't have one when I was trying to talk to her, but in these few weeks since I've left the bowling alley, you never know. She says they're putting her on front counter now. It's 'cause Phil likes her, but we all knew that. He's gonna work around her schedule too, because she told them that she wouldn't work unless they did so. Poor girl holds two jobs, maybe more in the near future. I can only wish her luck in her endeavors. And as for me being interested in her? I've pretty much given it up. I mean, she never wants to call me and let me know what's going on or anything with her schedule, so how am I supposed to find a time? So, unless she calls me,, which in my mind is a very slim chance, nothing will happen between us. Sure, she's attractive and all, but looks aren't everything.
Typing from my roommate's computer. We need a router for the internet to work on my computer; or, at least that's what Comcast says. Whatever. I'll have it up soon, as soon as we get one.
Got better grades than last semester. 2.2 cumulative GPA. better than 1.8. Only got 1 F too. I'm happy. Now I can actually tell my parents what I got, and hopefully get some financial aid.
Can't really think of anything else at the moment. If I haven't told you my current predicament yet, I will soon. Oyasumi nasai.