signs of dying
my grandma is probably going to pass soon. she's deteriorated so quickly. i was out of town for a week and it was like she was replaced with a different person.
though we've been going through this process a long time, for some reason it feels like it's hitting us quickly all of a sudden. i try not to cry in front of my mom, because it's her mother and as her daughter, i need to keep it more together for her, but i had my moment yesterday when we were discussing end stage care at the hospice. i have probably spent more time with my grandma in these last few months than i have the rest of my life, and i feel a little guilty about that.
one moment of levity, though. grandma likes to repeat things people say, though she's become dramatically more incoherent. mom and i were helping her eat lunch yesterday and she was rambling about something.
mom: so she was all talk and no action
grandma: ALL COCK! NO ACTION!!
she then yelled that about three more times. one of the nurses looked over and said "well, that sounds like a terrible time!"
mom and i couldn't stop laughing for about ten minutes. grandma didn't laugh or respond, but she did seem sort of pleased with herself all the same.
though we've been going through this process a long time, for some reason it feels like it's hitting us quickly all of a sudden. i try not to cry in front of my mom, because it's her mother and as her daughter, i need to keep it more together for her, but i had my moment yesterday when we were discussing end stage care at the hospice. i have probably spent more time with my grandma in these last few months than i have the rest of my life, and i feel a little guilty about that.
one moment of levity, though. grandma likes to repeat things people say, though she's become dramatically more incoherent. mom and i were helping her eat lunch yesterday and she was rambling about something.
mom: so she was all talk and no action
grandma: ALL COCK! NO ACTION!!
she then yelled that about three more times. one of the nurses looked over and said "well, that sounds like a terrible time!"
mom and i couldn't stop laughing for about ten minutes. grandma didn't laugh or respond, but she did seem sort of pleased with herself all the same.