somebody could fall in love with what you think is your biggest flaw.

[ik_hou_van_jou3]

let me just start off by saying the taylor swift cd is amazing.
okay now that i said that...

i have finally figured out something about myself.
because of him.
my biggest flaw is that i strive to be perfect.
not perfect in the way that my room is always clean
or that i'm always done up
but in the way that i don't want anyone to ever have a reason to laugh at me
and i don't like to mess up words when i write texts.
that kind of perfect.
but i'm okay with that.
i know i will never be perfect.
for once i put myself first
and it hurt people
so that did end up biting me in the ass
but i'm still happy.
i made a decision too.
last night was amazing
i feel like a better person because i know i can depend on myself
but that its okay to depend on other people.
i can feel my childhood slipping away, but unlike caroline i'm not okay with it.
its a scary thought.
he's so perfect it scares me a little bit.
no one is that perfect.
but he has made me such a better person.
i'm so honest with people
but in a good kind of way
i just say what i'm feeling
and it makes things so much easier.
i don't know where my life is going, and i don't really want to.

"always tell someone how you feel
mean what you say and say what you mean even when its hard
because opportunities are lost
in a blink of an eye but
regrets can last a lifetime"