i don't love you because i need you ; i need you because i love you

[ijustdied]

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today was degrading.
i have never in my life felt more like a piece of trash.

i'd rather not get into it.

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every time i think im close to making i n t o t h e f a k e public again,
my mind spins & i conjure something else to add or edit.

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tomorrow i will babysit Sydney from 7am-ish till 5pm-ish.
im not as excited as i should be.

i need to be hit.