broken
What do you do when one day your perfect world comes crashing down? Something you thought would never diminish, so sturdy it could stand the test of time. How do you rebuild those walls, the ones you spent countless hours building piece by piece with your heart and soul? Even If those walls could be replaced, things would never be the same. The cracks will slowly but surely come creeping up eventually.
I felt my heart torn into pieces I can’t seem to find today. I’ve rebuild and moved on, and told myself I would never let myself be hurt so badly in that way ever again. I thought I had full control, thought I was lucky enough to have found the one that would never hurt me in that way ever again. But I was wrong, I was weak, and now I am suffering for my own mistakes. I have seen myself in the wrong person’s eyes, gave my heart away to someone that didn’t want it. I felt like my heart has been stabbed, but this time by the one I trusted in the whole entire world with everything I have, every part of life.
I heard all the explanations, and I’ve also heard lots in the past, the difference from me then and now was I believed everyone of those lies and at the end I was the one blinded by the truth. I want to believe every explanation but I just can’t put myself in that situation once again. Get hurt in ways I don’t think I can mentally handle. I wish I could love in like I never been hurt before, and be the fairest in all situations. But I can’t, and I’m sorry for it.
I trusted us, open my heart once again…only to come back to what tears us apart. My all was put into the pot; happiness was spilling out of us. We were the envy of others. We were the happy ending in every movie. Our love was written in every love songs. And now I can’t help but the feel every crack in it. To question everything your doing, to feel sadden at what we have become. My perfect boyfriend broken my heart in ways I thought he would never do. When we were on the boat and you asked me to be your s, I told me to never hurt me…. And that promise has been broken. We are now broken. And maybe never be the same.
Forgive and move on, I thought was something that’s reachable, but more time goes by all I could think of when we lay next to each other is the other women you “could of” been with or thinking of. Or how wrong I was for opening my heart, and now see a knife in it…all of me bleeding out of it. When I sleep at night I can’t help but see imagines of you with her. Or the whole situation that happened reruns in my head like an awful infomercial. I want to believe your side, my heart wants to allow you back in and go back to the way we once were, but my head keeps telling me “I know better than that”. I feel pain every time we are together. The happiness doesn’t last long enough to slay away the pain. Seeing you treating me well and trying to make things better hurts even more. Every kiss every hug is like you stabbing my heart. Cause deep down we will never be the same. That scare will always be there. And this pain…as much as I want to forget it ever happen will remain there. Our wall broke and the foundation of us has weaken, will never be as strong as we once were.
This time around I gave my all….
I felt my heart torn into pieces I can’t seem to find today. I’ve rebuild and moved on, and told myself I would never let myself be hurt so badly in that way ever again. I thought I had full control, thought I was lucky enough to have found the one that would never hurt me in that way ever again. But I was wrong, I was weak, and now I am suffering for my own mistakes. I have seen myself in the wrong person’s eyes, gave my heart away to someone that didn’t want it. I felt like my heart has been stabbed, but this time by the one I trusted in the whole entire world with everything I have, every part of life.
I heard all the explanations, and I’ve also heard lots in the past, the difference from me then and now was I believed everyone of those lies and at the end I was the one blinded by the truth. I want to believe every explanation but I just can’t put myself in that situation once again. Get hurt in ways I don’t think I can mentally handle. I wish I could love in like I never been hurt before, and be the fairest in all situations. But I can’t, and I’m sorry for it.
I trusted us, open my heart once again…only to come back to what tears us apart. My all was put into the pot; happiness was spilling out of us. We were the envy of others. We were the happy ending in every movie. Our love was written in every love songs. And now I can’t help but the feel every crack in it. To question everything your doing, to feel sadden at what we have become. My perfect boyfriend broken my heart in ways I thought he would never do. When we were on the boat and you asked me to be your s, I told me to never hurt me…. And that promise has been broken. We are now broken. And maybe never be the same.
Forgive and move on, I thought was something that’s reachable, but more time goes by all I could think of when we lay next to each other is the other women you “could of” been with or thinking of. Or how wrong I was for opening my heart, and now see a knife in it…all of me bleeding out of it. When I sleep at night I can’t help but see imagines of you with her. Or the whole situation that happened reruns in my head like an awful infomercial. I want to believe your side, my heart wants to allow you back in and go back to the way we once were, but my head keeps telling me “I know better than that”. I feel pain every time we are together. The happiness doesn’t last long enough to slay away the pain. Seeing you treating me well and trying to make things better hurts even more. Every kiss every hug is like you stabbing my heart. Cause deep down we will never be the same. That scare will always be there. And this pain…as much as I want to forget it ever happen will remain there. Our wall broke and the foundation of us has weaken, will never be as strong as we once were.
This time around I gave my all….