Merry Christmas
I am still sadden at the fact Jessica and Nick are divorcing. They look like the world’s sweetest couple and within years it has all came tumbling down. I always admired that relationship they had, adored their good times and bad on Newlyweds. I’ve always thought my relationship could be just as romantic and interesting as theirs. They showed me how loving someone could be like, and made me believe in a happy ending like those told in fairy tales. Made me believe in marriage and true and everlasting love, but I’ve been utterly wronged at believing in it. Hollywood romance does not last. And like all fairy tales, it is lies. Thought this time it be different….I really wanted to see it be different. Jessica has always been a good influence on others. Even though this happened, I believe it was the fame that broke the relationship. I only wish the best for both people with their lives in the future. Sadden but hey, if it is for the better why not?
As for me…problems will never go away, like I have felt before, a broken relationship. One gives too much while another holds back. Sometimes I feel like I just want to give it all up. Way too much work and at the same time I want to really know if I am walking down the right path? I see the path but do I really believe it could all be true? Will I regret in the near or far future? Fights, arguments, and tears have overpowered this relationship. I just want one whole week of just “us” No fighting at all, just listening to each other and enjoying what we have. That is what I want for Christmas, my Christmas wish. I am ready to fly on my own. At the end I feel this is all so hard and it shouldn’t be this hard. I know you think there isn’t a problem here, but there is! And I really don’t have a clue in how to fix any of it anymore. We’ve dig ourselves a grave to burry this relationship in. One day it will be time to close this whole and walk away….
As for me…problems will never go away, like I have felt before, a broken relationship. One gives too much while another holds back. Sometimes I feel like I just want to give it all up. Way too much work and at the same time I want to really know if I am walking down the right path? I see the path but do I really believe it could all be true? Will I regret in the near or far future? Fights, arguments, and tears have overpowered this relationship. I just want one whole week of just “us” No fighting at all, just listening to each other and enjoying what we have. That is what I want for Christmas, my Christmas wish. I am ready to fly on my own. At the end I feel this is all so hard and it shouldn’t be this hard. I know you think there isn’t a problem here, but there is! And I really don’t have a clue in how to fix any of it anymore. We’ve dig ourselves a grave to burry this relationship in. One day it will be time to close this whole and walk away….