this is life..no actually this is my life
So its Thursday night April 8th 2005, i have less than 3 months till i graduate and its freaking me out a bit..bc i deff think in my head that day is never gonna come but now with the warm days teasing us and the idgaf about school attitude kicking in..its becoming to seam alot more real. dont get me wrong i am soooo siked to go away to school and go through all the great and bad things that will happen to me..and to play ball..party..meeting all these new people and alll that stuff..cant wait for the summer either...i still have the bestfriends is the whole..they are like my family now..BUT i just am not good with endings and goodbyes bc i know it might be the last time i see some of these people..at some cases that makes me really happy...but in others it just seams too sad..i dont know mann my head is all fucked up and shit bout that and other shit..i wish i had every moment of these past four yrs on tape..so i could watch it all over someday..i know it seams pretty weird but i really hold on to things..and i run things thru my head all the time that happened yrs ago..like whole events..or days..i just run thru them in my head idk...i guess it brings me back to that moment in someway..idk if that makes sense at all but i kno wut im saying...ok i dont even know what im talking about anymore so im gonna stop...i was going somewhere there i swear. O=o)
i didnt do one damn thing this weekend..bc i was in bed all weekend sick as hell..it started like on friday i think..i was just feeling sooo sick in school it was soo bad and i left early..then i was just bad as hell on friday night and i slept since i got home from school till like saturday afternoon…I dun remember much it seams just liek it was blur of my life fighting to breathe..lol..then the week came and i was still like dying thenn i got a stomach virus to go with my other sickness w.e it was..oh man i was in bad shape...but wutever im better..i went to work today..it put me in a bad mood..but wutever..now im just outside cuz it feels nice cuz its like pouring and i like just sitting here watching and listening to it..oh yea of course im eating ice cream lol..maybe this is why i get sick..ummmmmm too bad the bestfriend is freaking sick! with MONO and wasnt in school all week..darn it i cant even make out with her right now!! haha..sooo not cool lisa! u better be good to go for springbreak..which btw starts tom rightttt after school OHH YES..i hope its fuckign hottt bro!!
ok i think im done here..this was prety homo but its fine i had nothing better to do while i do wut im doing..soo take good care bitch..ily<3