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Dec 01, 2004 22:12

why am i crying? wow. thats a question ive asked myself so many times lately. i cry for no reason. none at all. and i am just sad so much. and i hate it. i pretend to be happy but i cant do it anymore lately. i cant even do it. i just want to sleep. i have headaches. and my life isnt even that bad. i guess im just really lonely. its nice to have people in your life. but i would trade them all for one person that would just be really there for me. im tired. im lonely and im crying. greatttttttt. im so envious of so many people around. and that sucks ass. i hate it. i just wanna be loved. i want someone to love me. is that so wrong? im a needy bitch. and i know it. and thats my problem. i wouldnt want me either. nasty fat ugly cow. great positive self talk sarah.

im sitting in my room. which looks like a tornado hit it. im listening to mandy moore. i really like her song only hope. ive been listening to it non stop since i downloaded it. does depression run in the family? i really wonder if its genetic. because that would give me a good excuse. but if it doesnt then i am just psycho.

why do i crave attention? why do i feel ugly? why do i need a constant companion. why do i feel like i am not good enough. why do i feel like ive never accomplished anything worth while. why am i letting things bother me so much.

suck it up sister. put on a smile. and stop complaining.
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