ranting
- I have a bruise on my knee that keeps getting bigger thanks to being in a seat with one lap bar and a very large man and a very large drop. Not very pleased about it.
- Mum might get my birth control worked out, but until then I AM GOING TO BE VERY EMOTIONAL AND NOT HAPPY AND BREAKING OUT AND FEELING SHITTY ALL THE FUCKING TIME. Jeez. It's not that hard to just rewrite a prescription (that was fucking doing it's job) and send it to where it was asked to be sent? Why would you send my prescription to somewhere in bumblefuck coast MS when I asked for the Walmart pharmacy in Oxford?
- At least I'll get 13 bonus points on my next NHM test, maybe I'll get an A this time. :|
- Sent my professor the wrong revision and so my paper will not be revised until tomorrow. 10 minute speech is on Wednesday. -______-
- Did not study for BUS 250 or Psychology because my head is just... not... wrapping around anything! I'm not sure if I can't be bothered or if it's focus problems. Laziness or stress? Hmmmmm well hoping there isn't a quiz or two tomorrow, and that'll be okay.
- I'm going to the midnight showing of the Hunger Games with the girls, which was dumb of me since I have a test the next day. :| I'm happy I'll get to see it, just not pleased about it being a Thursday.
- I can't make myself study and this is becoming an increasing problem. I mean I know I'll end up with good grades regardless, I just.... I'm soooo frustrated why can't I study, I AM TRYING TO STUDY???
My old Chinese professor caught me today and was telling me how my grades are so good and they would let me back into the program and all this other bullshit...
I'm sorry but I very specifically said when I quit that I was done. I wasn't going back to China.
And she just says, "Oh, combine your internship with your other major with Chinese and go to Nanjing! You can still do 5th year."
The pushing makes me hate China even more. Just leave me alone, gosh, I'm so fucking tired of Chinese and all of it's unbelievable bullshit. I'm not a grade, or a pawn for your government money. I'm a person, who has been speaking up about my issues for over a year to completely deaf ears. I'm a good student who is compared to other students who have been studying longer than I am, and even though I'm still better than some of them, it's still not enough. I don't have to take that and I won't.
sorry just had to get it out
too emotional right now, i can't really handle it.
Hmm, question:
If I go to France I have no doubt I'll be going back to Angouleme (helps it's not very far from where I'll be.) Although my French will still not be quite up to par, Caz speaks English fluently, and I know from Facebook that I can communicate with Pierre and Mathilde well enough. They're pretty much who I want to see, I didn't really hang out with anybody else. Especially Pierre, he's so freaking nice!! I want to visit Sourya in Lyon, but I haven't heard back from him yet.
Curious where else I should go? I really want to go somewhere I haven't been yet.
It's gonna be expensive though, since I'd be all the way in SW France, and I don't really want to go to Spain. (Portgual would be nice, but still, I'd really like to go to Scandinavia or Eastern Europe.) Why does travel cost sooo much more in the summer? I really just want to go to Tallinn.
Any suggestions?