but to me, you were perfect
blah, i feel large. i just ate way to much food. but it was good. so i guess its alright. i really dont know where im going with my life lately. i feel like im kinda going down hill, and all at once i love it, and hate it. we will just have to see how it goes. right now im layin in bed listening to Hollywood undead. i really like them, i love music. =] ugh i hate the fact i have add. i can never just sit here and write what i wanna, and i have SO MANY things i wanna write, and when i have the oppurtuinty, i just like choke. so im just guna write what is going through my head, so ill apoligize now if it makes no sense. I hate ignorant people, i hate when people invite themselves over to my house, i dont like him. i miss courtney, steph makes me mad sometmes. i hate drinking and making an ass of myself, and not remembering some of it, i hate passing out in peoples cars. i hate how i am obsessed with things i was so much against. i hate how i have no self control, or i do have self control and i just dont care. im not sure what it is but i hate it. my phone is very broken =[. i hate boring txts and one word answers. i hate that jared calls me names. i hate that i think he is right. im looking forward to wednesday and thrusday. i love line dancing, christy inspires me. she found a super good guy and im jealous. i kinda wanna see mike f when he gets back on wednesday. i wanna run with an ipod but catie has my cord, i miss catie, i wanan talk to her but i have no idea what to say, i know shes right and more n more i see her point being proven to me and for some reason i remain a doormat. i really dont wanna slip n slide tonight at all. but its always cool to make plans at my house with my friends n then deicde u will inform me a few hrs b4 the fact. i need a job =[ im looking forward to talons benefit. people are to nice. i care to much what other ppl think. i have a crush on a 15 yr old. hahahah not really i just very much enjoy his company at my only job i have left. i saw mike today and it made me angry. i saw his gf n it made me even more angry. blah my life is honestly so different and i think its all because i have no idea what will make me happy. i just wish i cud waeke up n be like the person i wanna be, and it just isnt happening. ughh idk. im soo confused.
i hate boys, parties, drinkin,my phone, drugs, smoking, and being large.
i love danceing. i miss my dog.
i wanna run
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