your beautiful, but you dont mean a thing to me.
ughh i dont know why i am up at 3:16 or why i am even bothering writing this but i need to set the record straight for myself and everyone else. i know that past few months i havent been acting myself and honestly i kinda am ashamed of it all. i honestly do feel kinda slutty and anyone who really knows me knows i would never act like that, i feel that i did was because i had no idea how to act after getting out of a 3 yr relationship. i now know that people see me as easy, slutty, and stupid. and i see myself as that too. and im not going to be like that anymore because it makes me feel like shit and no one respects me for it. i feel like ive talked to so many people about this and almost everyone doesnt have the balls to tell me to wake up and look at what im doing because their my friends and they just want me to be happy or whatever. but i know that i was pretty stupid and i would like to just say that i am not like that at all. im a smart, nonslutty girl. i think i just wanted to not miss mike anymore and to be just as happy as he is, but i went about it all wrong. i looked for ppl to like me in all the wrong places, and the people that might like me for me, i ignore and dont give a fair chance because im scared. it probally makes no sense to anyone but me, but oh well. i am just here to set the record straight that ive woken up from my stupid choices lil streak and im going to start being me again, ashley who cares more about other than herself, who is a tannorexic, smart, music obsessed, work hating, flirty fun super scared to do stuff with guys kinda girl. the end. the only things i need this summer are my friends, music, my sometimes cute & annoying dog, my v.i.p pass to tanning, my car and my job. everything else will fall in line and hopefully my summer works out for the best.
to my friends, thanks for talking to me and kinda showing me that i was right and need to chill on the hoe act and to everyone else, sorry if you thought i was easy, im not and i hope you like me for the real me and were cool.
blah idk how i feel right now, but its not good. =[ probally cuz i feel like every1 thinks im easy, i always mess everything up.
butt as for my girls night, i love my friends, the end,
ahh there was just a spider crawling on me =[
to my friends, thanks for talking to me and kinda showing me that i was right and need to chill on the hoe act and to everyone else, sorry if you thought i was easy, im not and i hope you like me for the real me and were cool.
blah idk how i feel right now, but its not good. =[ probally cuz i feel like every1 thinks im easy, i always mess everything up.
butt as for my girls night, i love my friends, the end,
ahh there was just a spider crawling on me =[