...on a higher note, your not dead!
well hey, I'm back. I'm in guidance right now. I didn't feel like going to the library and I didn't find my art buddies.
well, things are looking up here I guess. waiting for the senior portrait was friggen BORING! I sat on the end at the top and no one was coming near me. eventually, some people did, and they were all the cool lil punky kinda people. ok, yeah "punky" is a dumb word but I don't know how to describe them really. mainly they are the cool people here that I look up to.
that "metal" kid scott was there. he told me he would learn my name, and eventually stop calling me the "cool normal person." this cool lil punk girl who was there w/ all her friends too. she's dating the only other person in this school w/ a lip piercing. his name is zack. she turned around and asked me if I was Marielle, and I was like yeah. she started talking to me about DropKick Murphy's playing on Friday. I told her I was going, and with my boyfriend. she said she'd give me her number and we all can either go together or meet up there. she said we can hang with them and she would introduce me to some people. that was soooo nice. that made me smile. I've seen a couple of her friends around and all and some are in my classes. I think Jill and her friend have been talking about me cause obviously she knew who I was and that I was new. I feel all special.
anyways, Jesse and I are definately going on Friday, no matter what! I didn't get her number but I'm sure I either will see her and she'll give it to me, or I will just see her at the show. I duno but that really made my day, and also that Jesse was in a good mood this morning, and that I had a good nights sleep for once. I felt kinda dumb, but I felt kinda cool too seeing as how I am sitting w/ the "cool" kids in the senior picture. I was sooo in a bad mood until she started talking to me. Ohio is a lot different, and I like it better, people are sooo much nicer.
eww I have this orange juice and it tastes like CRAP! I need to answer a question for senior comp. and I don't feel like it. I just had to I duno... actually I was in a bad mood earlier for different reasons. I read back in my journal about 6 or so months ago and I was soooo effin miserable it was crazy. every entry that month was like "I hate this and I hate that and you suck and I suck and blah blah blah" I was like holy crap. I couldn't believe how much things had changed and how aweful school was last year. the beginning of this year was soooo much better it was sickening and that made me sort of sad seeing as how things are hard again. but, I'm staying on the positive side because things here are improving and I have Jesse and I'm just so lucky. I'm actually excited about my birthday tomorrow. not like it makes a big deal, but before I didn't even want it to come.
okay I'm blabbin and blabbin. I will stop now. me=happy! schools not so bad right now, and I love Jesse.
well, things are looking up here I guess. waiting for the senior portrait was friggen BORING! I sat on the end at the top and no one was coming near me. eventually, some people did, and they were all the cool lil punky kinda people. ok, yeah "punky" is a dumb word but I don't know how to describe them really. mainly they are the cool people here that I look up to.
that "metal" kid scott was there. he told me he would learn my name, and eventually stop calling me the "cool normal person." this cool lil punk girl who was there w/ all her friends too. she's dating the only other person in this school w/ a lip piercing. his name is zack. she turned around and asked me if I was Marielle, and I was like yeah. she started talking to me about DropKick Murphy's playing on Friday. I told her I was going, and with my boyfriend. she said she'd give me her number and we all can either go together or meet up there. she said we can hang with them and she would introduce me to some people. that was soooo nice. that made me smile. I've seen a couple of her friends around and all and some are in my classes. I think Jill and her friend have been talking about me cause obviously she knew who I was and that I was new. I feel all special.
anyways, Jesse and I are definately going on Friday, no matter what! I didn't get her number but I'm sure I either will see her and she'll give it to me, or I will just see her at the show. I duno but that really made my day, and also that Jesse was in a good mood this morning, and that I had a good nights sleep for once. I felt kinda dumb, but I felt kinda cool too seeing as how I am sitting w/ the "cool" kids in the senior picture. I was sooo in a bad mood until she started talking to me. Ohio is a lot different, and I like it better, people are sooo much nicer.
eww I have this orange juice and it tastes like CRAP! I need to answer a question for senior comp. and I don't feel like it. I just had to I duno... actually I was in a bad mood earlier for different reasons. I read back in my journal about 6 or so months ago and I was soooo effin miserable it was crazy. every entry that month was like "I hate this and I hate that and you suck and I suck and blah blah blah" I was like holy crap. I couldn't believe how much things had changed and how aweful school was last year. the beginning of this year was soooo much better it was sickening and that made me sort of sad seeing as how things are hard again. but, I'm staying on the positive side because things here are improving and I have Jesse and I'm just so lucky. I'm actually excited about my birthday tomorrow. not like it makes a big deal, but before I didn't even want it to come.
okay I'm blabbin and blabbin. I will stop now. me=happy! schools not so bad right now, and I love Jesse.