But...He's a Dragon and i'm a Tiger....Seiryu and Byakko.
been a while since i've been back here. i think i decided to go back to writing about my life like ai used to. things have been crazy for a while...i broke things off with korey, and even though i probably SHOULD go into a huge things about that, i'm not going to. too damn much to type and the story is still being written. my plans right now? move out and start "doin me" what happened this last weekend was enough to make me realize i need to start my life instead of waiting for approval or someone else to do their part. no ones going to do anything if you keep saying you're going to make a move - yet don't make the move. i've been having some stomach aches lately ( i had an ulcer last month) so that's good enough motivation to make me be more concerned about my health. The first thing that happened this weekend was a argument i had with korey about him talking to rob, and rob compaling about him. basically, they both don't like eachother and they complain to me about what little things they both do that pisses one another off.
so i decided to be a friend and tell korey how he should go about talking to him if he wants to get a point across. he gets amd and thinks i'm trying to tell him what to do, as if i want to control the situation (how can i when i'm not even in the same city for the weekend?) and the rest was downhill. so my decision is that i'm not going to intervene or try to help, he thinks his way is fine, coo. i quit answering phone calls for the weekend, and got drunk lol. then my mother calls and tells me my cousin i was close to died. the emotion didn't come until today on the way home. the funeral my be happening this friday....so i'm trying to figure out a way to get up there. then about about two days later one of my best friends tells me he's going to kill himself, and that's the last i heard of him. i hope he didn't do it...
finally i come home and everyones quiet. korey closes his door when he notices me coming in. i'm too high and a little tipsy, and i don't really want confrontation....got enough going on. don't need more stress. i think i'm just through....and that i need to be selfish. i don't want to fight anymore. don't feel a reason to.
it's funny........i want to write about another person but i don't know how to go about it, not scared, just.....don't know what to write. )ugh i really am high....a mess...AND i have to work tomorrow gah) i think he will be in his own entry....i' kinda tired...gotta give my self another reason to write right? lol
so i decided to be a friend and tell korey how he should go about talking to him if he wants to get a point across. he gets amd and thinks i'm trying to tell him what to do, as if i want to control the situation (how can i when i'm not even in the same city for the weekend?) and the rest was downhill. so my decision is that i'm not going to intervene or try to help, he thinks his way is fine, coo. i quit answering phone calls for the weekend, and got drunk lol. then my mother calls and tells me my cousin i was close to died. the emotion didn't come until today on the way home. the funeral my be happening this friday....so i'm trying to figure out a way to get up there. then about about two days later one of my best friends tells me he's going to kill himself, and that's the last i heard of him. i hope he didn't do it...
finally i come home and everyones quiet. korey closes his door when he notices me coming in. i'm too high and a little tipsy, and i don't really want confrontation....got enough going on. don't need more stress. i think i'm just through....and that i need to be selfish. i don't want to fight anymore. don't feel a reason to.
it's funny........i want to write about another person but i don't know how to go about it, not scared, just.....don't know what to write. )ugh i really am high....a mess...AND i have to work tomorrow gah) i think he will be in his own entry....i' kinda tired...gotta give my self another reason to write right? lol