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since everyone i know is leaving me to go to college soon, i figured id take some time to reflect the summer, as everyone else is.
i feel like ive broken many trusts with people, that ive lost all of my innocence, and that im seeing with new eyes. i feel like i learned to stick up to people more, that im more strong willed than i thought i was and that im still breaking down on the inside regardless of my exterior.
i found out that my moms boyfriend is moving is with us.
lately all ive wanted to do is cry. i feel like ill never be in a relationship, that people may love me, but why not enough to date me?
i turn 18 on tuesday and yet i still have the same thoughts and wounds as i did when i was 15. i still have a broken heart. i still am not mentally stable. i still miss people that i wish i got to see more. i still wish i had certain people in my life.
im getting a tattoo on tuesday probably. two stars on my foot.
this summer has taught me to live and learn, and to forgive but not forget. i miss you guys. i miss everyone i went to skewl with, people i used to kiss, (bc i never dated anyone) and i miss the memories. geeze, i wish i felt more happy. i wish it were all okay on the inside. if by tuesday i dont have a bf, i am worried i have to change what im used to. and im scared.
please help me cuz im breaking down.
i feel like ive broken many trusts with people, that ive lost all of my innocence, and that im seeing with new eyes. i feel like i learned to stick up to people more, that im more strong willed than i thought i was and that im still breaking down on the inside regardless of my exterior.
i found out that my moms boyfriend is moving is with us.
lately all ive wanted to do is cry. i feel like ill never be in a relationship, that people may love me, but why not enough to date me?
i turn 18 on tuesday and yet i still have the same thoughts and wounds as i did when i was 15. i still have a broken heart. i still am not mentally stable. i still miss people that i wish i got to see more. i still wish i had certain people in my life.
im getting a tattoo on tuesday probably. two stars on my foot.
this summer has taught me to live and learn, and to forgive but not forget. i miss you guys. i miss everyone i went to skewl with, people i used to kiss, (bc i never dated anyone) and i miss the memories. geeze, i wish i felt more happy. i wish it were all okay on the inside. if by tuesday i dont have a bf, i am worried i have to change what im used to. and im scared.
please help me cuz im breaking down.