I am just scared
The scariest part has to be fear of losing by best friend. There are no signs that this will happen; we are on good terms and have plans to continue spending time, but everything changes when she moves on and enters a new relationship. I am trying to not panic too much or I will only drive her away, but it is hard.
It is hard not to just kiss her. Last night we had a wonderful discussion; one of the best in a long time and near the end I was so close to just grabbing her and kissing her. I told her so (which probably isn't a good idea). I probably should have just done it or shut up. I don't even think she would have responded too negatively; she wants someone who is more bold but I feel like she has already decided that I am not that person.
I am just scared...it is so hard to remain calm, but I want to enjoy how ever much time we have left.
It is hard not to just kiss her. Last night we had a wonderful discussion; one of the best in a long time and near the end I was so close to just grabbing her and kissing her. I told her so (which probably isn't a good idea). I probably should have just done it or shut up. I don't even think she would have responded too negatively; she wants someone who is more bold but I feel like she has already decided that I am not that person.
I am just scared...it is so hard to remain calm, but I want to enjoy how ever much time we have left.