indifference
Exhausted, tired, stressed, wanting to have a nervous break down and not being able to afford one. Who care really. ARGH. So much to do, no time, energy or desire to do anything. Running away sounds easy, but since when is life easy.
I guess the next topic is indifference. How do we come to a place in our lives where we are indifferent about an outcome. Ultimately we have concern about stuff, I mean it is our lives, we have preferences and desires even though ultimately we want God's preferences and desires to superceed ours, right? I dunno, I just don't know how to get to a point where I am indifferent about what happens in my life even though I want my life to truly be taken over by God's will. Although I want one thing to happen I am okay with the idea of God's will prevailing. I want His will but I can't say I am indifferent. I can't be indifferent, wanting God's will in my life is being not indifferent, it that makes sense. I dunno, life is just life and sometmies I get so frustrated trying to run it, so I try and let God run it. But when I try that people just keep telling me how I am doing it wrong.
Look at the smiling icon below in moods, why the heck is it smiling, indifferent to me doesn't seem to be a happy emotion just a nothing emotion...
I guess the next topic is indifference. How do we come to a place in our lives where we are indifferent about an outcome. Ultimately we have concern about stuff, I mean it is our lives, we have preferences and desires even though ultimately we want God's preferences and desires to superceed ours, right? I dunno, I just don't know how to get to a point where I am indifferent about what happens in my life even though I want my life to truly be taken over by God's will. Although I want one thing to happen I am okay with the idea of God's will prevailing. I want His will but I can't say I am indifferent. I can't be indifferent, wanting God's will in my life is being not indifferent, it that makes sense. I dunno, life is just life and sometmies I get so frustrated trying to run it, so I try and let God run it. But when I try that people just keep telling me how I am doing it wrong.
Look at the smiling icon below in moods, why the heck is it smiling, indifferent to me doesn't seem to be a happy emotion just a nothing emotion...