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WHAT THE FUCK? WHAT THE HELL? So much for trying to get out of this damn hole I have dug for myself. I dunno what to do or what to say to make things better. I know I need to make it better myself. I need to snap out of this but all of a sudden I don't want to. I mean, what is the point. The last week has been people just attacking me, when they know it and when they don't. It just seems like everything I do fucks people up. Or people are continually pointing out how sinful I am and how bad of a person I am. You know that original wound that so many religious people talk about... it seems like everyone in the world has found mine and they all keep stabbing me repeatedly over and over in it. I thought had my walls positioned probably to stop that shit from happening. But I guess all my Jesus loving has broken down those walls and made me vulnerable for attack when least expected. I can't handle it anymore. I just wanna die.